I decided to do one of this forum's nice questionnaire things. Sorry for any errors in grammar and syntax, and any misuse of certain words! Also, sorry for not keeping it concise, bad habit! But this is how I communicate too....rambling.
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
INxP. I consistently switch off, and think I might be INFP, but I took the PerC's one and got INTP just yesterday. I kinda wonder if I just value T, and in reality am F. Though I've also kind of wondered lately whether I'm actually J instead of P, even if P tests online consistently. INxP has been consistent for about 5 years, but then I'm only 20.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
Exceptional brilliance and intelligence, a genius at anything I like and set my mind to. Partly because I'm kind of quietly competitive…But since it's not a concrete goal, I feel like it's beyond my capabilities to even come close to genius....so then I become unmotivated and lazy. Inertia. Probably doesn't help that I'm easily distracted.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
It's whenever I prove myself exceptional, mainly in something academic. I feel smart, or it reinforces the belief that I can be smart, especially if I've made an effort. I don't know why it feels so good. Especially when everyone is surprised and impressed (maybe because the task is difficult or if I just surpassed the average or did something unexpected). I don't like the prolonged attention much, but it’s nice for it to have happened.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
Usually it’s been being incompetent, failure, and sometimes that's my own fault for not practicing, but sometimes it just is. Especially when I was a kid, but now it’s just because I'm self-destructive hahaha. When I don't feel independent, in control of myself, able to do simple things, or when I'm feeling or being made to feel that I have poor character, especially if what's said is true or if there’s some basis for the comment that I can't argue with. I feel very low and small and singularly foolish.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
For my own decisions, I obsessively process all aspects for days and become overwhelmed with all the information, and try to write it all down, lists, pros, cons, etc….and then I guess I end up asking everybody for advice. I can become very indecisive when I rely on thought. If it's involving another person's somehow becoming hurt or angry or disappointed with me, I end up really stressing out. When I ask for advice I kind of become all overdramatic and wishy-washy and debate every point they bring, and people become frustrated. I'm trying to learn to just make my own decisions without asking for advice.
I once held my cousin and sister in a store for half-an-hour wondering whether I should buy cheap rain boots for the monsoon season/puddle-jumping or to just buy chips. On the one hand they might be really uncomfortable but at least they’d be a better way of using the money. But if they gave me blisters as has been my experience with typical boots, they'd remain gathering dust in the closet. I think I ended up getting a small bag of chips or keeping the money.
In contrast, For others I'm pretty cool and logical and to the point, and reductionist. If they bring an issue, I try to help them see their choices, and become frustrated when at the end of the string, their reason for not acting is lazy or some wishy-washy emotion ("I don't want to," "I’m scared," "I knoooow...but") because I feel like they've wasted my time. I might be the same though, I try to look for more options, or a way out....
It’s probably easier just relying on my gut.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
I focus on how I want it to be. And I plan it all out. But it hardly ends up how I imagined, especially if it's crafts-related, and if I don't have both a time limit, and time enough. I think I need limits and structure to work efficiently. I also like to be in control of a project if I have an idea, and prefer to work alone since others will mess it up or divert from my vision(though I've learned that it can offer amazing improvements), otherwise I'll do the task I was assigned and try to do it as best as I can. I won't care about how others are doing on their task. If I had a vision, and I was in control I might care more, but if it's not important to me I don't think I'd reject someone’s contribution if they tried - I'm very non-confrontational with people I’m not comfortable with and I don't often care enough, or it'll bother me, but I won't want to be rude, especially since I don't know them. Then again, I haven’t been in leadership positions with people I don't know.
7) Describe to us a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
Racing up and down the streets with friends, crawling behind the creepy backside of this motel like it was some deserted forest or something. It was fun. Especially contrasting the beginning of the night. I felt braver and more daring, and like I made could do what I wanted whether other people were willing to or not. Also, running/dancing in the street at night when it was chilly and feeling energetic. Playing loud and competitive games of Uno with my sister while trying to think of stupid/clever disses to coincide with the card just placed down. Attack tennis, cheating-basketball.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? (Are you more prone to be hands on, to theorize, to memorize, etc)
Still trying to figure it out, but having it explained step by step works best for me. Hands-on, I suppose. To have everything clearly defined too, and then to memorize it. Ideas are easy to memorize, but not for math and such (where it's appropriate).
9) How organized do you to think of yourself as?
I’m pretty predisposed to being disorganized, but I've been getting this irritation at seeing shit everywhere. I feel like there are things behind my ears and such. So I've been being more organized. I'm trying to make a tight schedule but it's hard to do that with people interfering, and myself not committing mainly because I get discouraged for some reason....I think I get discouraged quite easily.
10) How do you judge new ideas? Do you try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense, or do you look for information that supports it?
Information. I research, and if it's subjective I look for different viewpoints of the matter to understand all sides. I guess principles too, but there can always be something that makes it fail in practice…? So it's better to research. Experience has taught me that too…just because an idea should work, it doesn’t mean it will. I suppose if you, in practice, keep it tightly controlled enough, or if you yourself are really competent, it could, but either I haven't tried enough, or I'm simply not that alert. (if this doesn't make sense, think experiment setting…).
11) Do you find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group, or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
I’m stuck between the two. I can't tell if I'm being selfish or normal. I'm leaning towards, people who believe the former are magnanimous by virtue, the latter are normal, and somehow loving yourself first in that way works. I question whether that's right, universally (it's a western idea, isn’t it? I understand it and I'm coming 'round but I question whether it’s right). Also I admire not having to belong to a group and being content. I don’t like to do the former and see it as more of an obligation.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
One-on-one. I like to think first, but in a casual setting I probably just word vomit. But I also mostly think of situations and voice them. It's a thought first, I mean, if not always a clear or defined one. My thoughts are always pretty vague and more pictorial, but still pretty linear, I think. (I think, I'm simple-minded, and that somehow causes me to complicate things easily).
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where you are jumping before leaping? Does action speak more than words?
The latter, and it does. But I feel happier being rash, I think. I don't see why words can't be a sort of action though. Sometimes a person proclaims their love or pride through words as their means of expressing it, or something…. I mean, so long as action backs it up too, or doesn't contradict it.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
Try to invite them over. Hah, or no, my favorite show, right? I AM WATCHING IT. Depending on who they are, I'll invite them. I need no interruption! Maybe I’ll come over to where they are later, it's probably just an hour anyway (they’re my friends, right?) If it's a book, I might not even answer the phone.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
Irritated, erratic, I think very simply and I become overwhelmed by sensory information very easily, which makes me act even more erratic. If it's mainly mental/emotional, I can get depressed and discouraged way easier. But I get very snappy and tend towards self-isolation.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
Temperamental, emotional and irrational/illogical behavior. Messy displays of emotion if the reason seems a bit stupid to me. If someone is insensitive, hah! Someone who speaks ignorantly. I really dislike temperamental people though....I don't know how to act around them, and it irks me that they're so sensitive that I have to constantly worry about anything I say, and then I start to avoid them....
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
I like talking about hobbies, and the feelings they give you. (I like how it feels when you climb a tree, I like that adrenaline rush when you go on this ride, I like how your mind rushes (the stimulation) after you read a book) I really like talking about similar experiences and finding similarities, maybe because it doesn’t happen much. I also like debating really silly things, for hours, like competition. Just back and forth, back and forth. (Is less really more?! Is this more noble than this?!) That's really fun for me. Similar experiences are nice, but arguing needlessly is fun too, so long as no one takes it personal and it’s for laughs and there's no cheating! People actually getting heated is annoying. I also really enjoy talking about crazy or far-fetched hypothetical situations, and it's exciting being surprised when someone has an interesting response to keep it going.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
My own life! Hah. I don't work enough at my appearance because when I try to I get frustrated at the effort when the outcome doesn't seem that worth it. And social subtext in general I guess. I miss it a lot in conversations and such I think.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
Thinking from my old roommate's pov: Naïve, very easily distracted, reservedly shy verging on anti-social, awkward, rambling weird communicator/hard to understand in content and delivery and generally gives too much unnecessary information, exaggerated/expressive gestures, and overthinks too much, indecisive. Disorganized. Likes to go outside and walk. Good listener. Overactive imagination.
They would never say I'm confrontational. But then, I don't often have a need to be. I'll stick up for friends if I see they've been slighted, but I haven't had many close friends lately.
They might think I'm really nice or tolerant or something, but I feel like in reality I have a tendency to critique/criticize and correct. Or just nag. Yeah, I can be pretty naggy.
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
Assuming I avoid the computer…. Laying down. Reading. Studying. Cooking [or maybe by that, I mean eating food specially customized to suit my tastes]. Writing. Climbing trees, going out and walking or playing some sort of (two-player) sport with someone. It’s surprising how hard it is to find someone who wants to do something active at all. I'd like to study a subject with someone too.
My spacebar was acting weird, if you find anything. Also, thanks and sorry for time spent. xD
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
INxP. I consistently switch off, and think I might be INFP, but I took the PerC's one and got INTP just yesterday. I kinda wonder if I just value T, and in reality am F. Though I've also kind of wondered lately whether I'm actually J instead of P, even if P tests online consistently. INxP has been consistent for about 5 years, but then I'm only 20.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
Exceptional brilliance and intelligence, a genius at anything I like and set my mind to. Partly because I'm kind of quietly competitive…But since it's not a concrete goal, I feel like it's beyond my capabilities to even come close to genius....so then I become unmotivated and lazy. Inertia. Probably doesn't help that I'm easily distracted.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
It's whenever I prove myself exceptional, mainly in something academic. I feel smart, or it reinforces the belief that I can be smart, especially if I've made an effort. I don't know why it feels so good. Especially when everyone is surprised and impressed (maybe because the task is difficult or if I just surpassed the average or did something unexpected). I don't like the prolonged attention much, but it’s nice for it to have happened.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
Usually it’s been being incompetent, failure, and sometimes that's my own fault for not practicing, but sometimes it just is. Especially when I was a kid, but now it’s just because I'm self-destructive hahaha. When I don't feel independent, in control of myself, able to do simple things, or when I'm feeling or being made to feel that I have poor character, especially if what's said is true or if there’s some basis for the comment that I can't argue with. I feel very low and small and singularly foolish.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
For my own decisions, I obsessively process all aspects for days and become overwhelmed with all the information, and try to write it all down, lists, pros, cons, etc….and then I guess I end up asking everybody for advice. I can become very indecisive when I rely on thought. If it's involving another person's somehow becoming hurt or angry or disappointed with me, I end up really stressing out. When I ask for advice I kind of become all overdramatic and wishy-washy and debate every point they bring, and people become frustrated. I'm trying to learn to just make my own decisions without asking for advice.
I once held my cousin and sister in a store for half-an-hour wondering whether I should buy cheap rain boots for the monsoon season/puddle-jumping or to just buy chips. On the one hand they might be really uncomfortable but at least they’d be a better way of using the money. But if they gave me blisters as has been my experience with typical boots, they'd remain gathering dust in the closet. I think I ended up getting a small bag of chips or keeping the money.
In contrast, For others I'm pretty cool and logical and to the point, and reductionist. If they bring an issue, I try to help them see their choices, and become frustrated when at the end of the string, their reason for not acting is lazy or some wishy-washy emotion ("I don't want to," "I’m scared," "I knoooow...but") because I feel like they've wasted my time. I might be the same though, I try to look for more options, or a way out....
It’s probably easier just relying on my gut.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
I focus on how I want it to be. And I plan it all out. But it hardly ends up how I imagined, especially if it's crafts-related, and if I don't have both a time limit, and time enough. I think I need limits and structure to work efficiently. I also like to be in control of a project if I have an idea, and prefer to work alone since others will mess it up or divert from my vision(though I've learned that it can offer amazing improvements), otherwise I'll do the task I was assigned and try to do it as best as I can. I won't care about how others are doing on their task. If I had a vision, and I was in control I might care more, but if it's not important to me I don't think I'd reject someone’s contribution if they tried - I'm very non-confrontational with people I’m not comfortable with and I don't often care enough, or it'll bother me, but I won't want to be rude, especially since I don't know them. Then again, I haven’t been in leadership positions with people I don't know.
7) Describe to us a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
Racing up and down the streets with friends, crawling behind the creepy backside of this motel like it was some deserted forest or something. It was fun. Especially contrasting the beginning of the night. I felt braver and more daring, and like I made could do what I wanted whether other people were willing to or not. Also, running/dancing in the street at night when it was chilly and feeling energetic. Playing loud and competitive games of Uno with my sister while trying to think of stupid/clever disses to coincide with the card just placed down. Attack tennis, cheating-basketball.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? (Are you more prone to be hands on, to theorize, to memorize, etc)
Still trying to figure it out, but having it explained step by step works best for me. Hands-on, I suppose. To have everything clearly defined too, and then to memorize it. Ideas are easy to memorize, but not for math and such (where it's appropriate).
9) How organized do you to think of yourself as?
I’m pretty predisposed to being disorganized, but I've been getting this irritation at seeing shit everywhere. I feel like there are things behind my ears and such. So I've been being more organized. I'm trying to make a tight schedule but it's hard to do that with people interfering, and myself not committing mainly because I get discouraged for some reason....I think I get discouraged quite easily.
10) How do you judge new ideas? Do you try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense, or do you look for information that supports it?
Information. I research, and if it's subjective I look for different viewpoints of the matter to understand all sides. I guess principles too, but there can always be something that makes it fail in practice…? So it's better to research. Experience has taught me that too…just because an idea should work, it doesn’t mean it will. I suppose if you, in practice, keep it tightly controlled enough, or if you yourself are really competent, it could, but either I haven't tried enough, or I'm simply not that alert. (if this doesn't make sense, think experiment setting…).
11) Do you find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group, or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
I’m stuck between the two. I can't tell if I'm being selfish or normal. I'm leaning towards, people who believe the former are magnanimous by virtue, the latter are normal, and somehow loving yourself first in that way works. I question whether that's right, universally (it's a western idea, isn’t it? I understand it and I'm coming 'round but I question whether it’s right). Also I admire not having to belong to a group and being content. I don’t like to do the former and see it as more of an obligation.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
One-on-one. I like to think first, but in a casual setting I probably just word vomit. But I also mostly think of situations and voice them. It's a thought first, I mean, if not always a clear or defined one. My thoughts are always pretty vague and more pictorial, but still pretty linear, I think. (I think, I'm simple-minded, and that somehow causes me to complicate things easily).
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where you are jumping before leaping? Does action speak more than words?
The latter, and it does. But I feel happier being rash, I think. I don't see why words can't be a sort of action though. Sometimes a person proclaims their love or pride through words as their means of expressing it, or something…. I mean, so long as action backs it up too, or doesn't contradict it.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
Try to invite them over. Hah, or no, my favorite show, right? I AM WATCHING IT. Depending on who they are, I'll invite them. I need no interruption! Maybe I’ll come over to where they are later, it's probably just an hour anyway (they’re my friends, right?) If it's a book, I might not even answer the phone.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
Irritated, erratic, I think very simply and I become overwhelmed by sensory information very easily, which makes me act even more erratic. If it's mainly mental/emotional, I can get depressed and discouraged way easier. But I get very snappy and tend towards self-isolation.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
Temperamental, emotional and irrational/illogical behavior. Messy displays of emotion if the reason seems a bit stupid to me. If someone is insensitive, hah! Someone who speaks ignorantly. I really dislike temperamental people though....I don't know how to act around them, and it irks me that they're so sensitive that I have to constantly worry about anything I say, and then I start to avoid them....
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
I like talking about hobbies, and the feelings they give you. (I like how it feels when you climb a tree, I like that adrenaline rush when you go on this ride, I like how your mind rushes (the stimulation) after you read a book) I really like talking about similar experiences and finding similarities, maybe because it doesn’t happen much. I also like debating really silly things, for hours, like competition. Just back and forth, back and forth. (Is less really more?! Is this more noble than this?!) That's really fun for me. Similar experiences are nice, but arguing needlessly is fun too, so long as no one takes it personal and it’s for laughs and there's no cheating! People actually getting heated is annoying. I also really enjoy talking about crazy or far-fetched hypothetical situations, and it's exciting being surprised when someone has an interesting response to keep it going.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
My own life! Hah. I don't work enough at my appearance because when I try to I get frustrated at the effort when the outcome doesn't seem that worth it. And social subtext in general I guess. I miss it a lot in conversations and such I think.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
Thinking from my old roommate's pov: Naïve, very easily distracted, reservedly shy verging on anti-social, awkward, rambling weird communicator/hard to understand in content and delivery and generally gives too much unnecessary information, exaggerated/expressive gestures, and overthinks too much, indecisive. Disorganized. Likes to go outside and walk. Good listener. Overactive imagination.
They would never say I'm confrontational. But then, I don't often have a need to be. I'll stick up for friends if I see they've been slighted, but I haven't had many close friends lately.
They might think I'm really nice or tolerant or something, but I feel like in reality I have a tendency to critique/criticize and correct. Or just nag. Yeah, I can be pretty naggy.
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
Assuming I avoid the computer…. Laying down. Reading. Studying. Cooking [or maybe by that, I mean eating food specially customized to suit my tastes]. Writing. Climbing trees, going out and walking or playing some sort of (two-player) sport with someone. It’s surprising how hard it is to find someone who wants to do something active at all. I'd like to study a subject with someone too.
My spacebar was acting weird, if you find anything. Also, thanks and sorry for time spent. xD