I am primarily introverted, intuitive, and perceiving, but I am unsure of the third letter. My preference changes depending on my surroundings. I could be a rational feeler, because one of Ti's roles in my mind is justifying my Fi; however, I could also be an irritable, feeling rational, because I see Fi as an extension of my Ti.
One of my major hang-ups is that, when I do feel, though it is seldom, I am impassioned. I feel DEEPLY and FERVENTLY. I am either completely indifferent/neutral, in love, hate, or disgust.
The times that I exhibit clear Feeling tendencies the most are when I'm stressed (i.e. work, school) or with my boyfriend (an INTJ), due to the elimination of introversion by virtue of familiarity. While at home, with no one to annoy me, I think, sing, read, and philosophize. Now, though my philosophizing or thinking may seem like a pastime suited for, well, a thinker, it is interlaced with feeling; if I think "too much" about a deep subject without an uplifting distraction, (e.g. a person, music, CommunityChannel, &c.) I also start to feel too much. When feeling lonely and thinking about the mundanity of life, this can lead to suicidal ideology.
With the help of the Myers-Briggs Personality website, I have compiled the bullets from the Thinking and Feeling lists which best suit me:
- I enjoy technical and scientific fields where logic is important.
- I notice inconsistencies; I am concerned with harmony and nervous when it is missing. (Both apply.)
- I look for logical explanations or solutions to most everything; I look for what is important to others and express concern for others. (Both apply.)
- I make decisions with my heart and want to be compassionate; I make decisions with my head and want to be fair. (Both apply.)
- I believe telling the truth is more important than being tactful.
- I can be seen as too task-oriented, uncaring, or indifferent; I am sometimes experienced by others as too idealistic, mushy, or indirect. (Both apply.)
I think it is important to note that my image has always been one of a thinker, but that internally, I often find myself boiling with frustration or bubbling with excitement without actually expressing such feelings. I want to, but I fear embarrassment and do not.
According to the 131-question Enneagram test at SimilarMinds.com, my personality traits are as follows:
Type 8 - Score of 57 - I must be strong and in control to be happy.
Type 5 - Score of 56 - I must be knowledgable and independent to be happy.
Type 6 - Score of 49 - I must be secure and safe to be happy.
Type 9 - Score of 46 - I must be peaceful and easy to get along with to be happy.
Type 4 - Score of 44 - I must avoid painful feelings to be happy.
Type 3 - Score of 40 - I must be impressive and attractive to be happy.
Type 7 - Score of 39 - I must be high and entertained to be happy.
Type 1 - Score of 33 - I must be perfect and good to be happy.
Type 2 - Score of 15 - I must be helpful and caring to be happy.
Sorry for the onslaught of information! If you read through all of this, I hail you.
Thanks in advance for any help.