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This is a discussion on The stream of conscious/venting thread for nines within the Type 9 Forum - The Peacemaker forums, part of the Body Triad - Types 8,9,1 category; Originally Posted by Sonny I refuse to believe people like that exist! Heh.. wait a minute, that must mean I'm ...
Is it solipsistic in here, or is it just me?
I am begging to realize how I feel about reality, digging into the mystery, the indifference, the dislike, and how that effects me.
Emotionally, I am coming to terms with the philosophical monster that is everything. How I enjoy electronics and learning again.
I am decompressing and returning to how I was before this past year. I'm becoming to have hope again, which I lost this past semester. (kind of the last nail in the coffin)
Now, I have to gear up and make another effort but I feel I have chance so it's quite possible for success.
I need to be going into work for a while to get a head start on the week (someone who had this position before me just flat out told me there's enough work for two people). And I have stuff I need to do after that.
And so of course I'm wasting time here on PerC instead. Some days I swear there needs to be a self-retire/ban button with time increments so you can prevent yourself from posting. *sigh*
And with that, I'm going to get ready for the day so I can do what needs to be done.
Meh, first time posting here. I'm just a little bit worried. This guy I like hasn't responded in an hour. I'm beginning to wonder, is he dead, did he fall asleep, did he get kidnapped, did I do something to offend him, etc.?! Last I heard he was tired, so it's very possible that he fell asleep, but he just had coffee too. I'm just hoping he fell asleep. Well, it's happened before (not with this particular guy, but yeah). Anyways, I don't usually worry so much, I'm just disintegrating. I gotta keep telling myself, it's gonna be alright, it's gonna be all right. Whatever happens won't be the end of the world. There we go. I convinced myself. I'm gonna have some tea now. Yeah, tea'll calm me down.
Edit: Yeah, some tea and DDO calmed me down. I'm pretty sure he fell asleep. Ah, well, I'll talk to him tomorrow.
Last edited by Holgrave; 06-10-2012 at 07:02 PM. Reason: Lol
^I'm sure you're fine, worrying about that sort of thing is very natural. xD
This picture is so true for me.
I am having one of those moments that what you thought you were you doing to better yourself, is ultimately making you shittier.
To term it with typology I'm seeing how SX/SP is effecting me, how yes I want to be closer to people, but I what I was trying to experience to help that has really been against that. I need to open up, work on knowing what I really want, what is important to me, and go for it. I really struggle with a fear of alienation irl, anyone that gets to know me sees it, as I think of it now I don't think any of good friends has not mentioned it one form or another. And I feel really really grateful for them.
Just went through some debate threads here where some intense characters were intense... God. I felt kind of overdosed just reading that shit. Thought the 9 forum would the perfect forum to skim through to wash away the intensity rub-off, ha. I can see better now in an empathetic way why some people like my own calmness and lightheartedness. Makes me appreciate myself more.
Yeah, anyway; Keep being peaceful, Peacemakers!
I don't really mediate between people even though I am a 9. Usually I just let them duke it out and if they can't find a solution AND its bringing down my juju then I get mad and have to step in. Otherwise, by all means rip each others throats out. I am a nihilist at heart I believe I do embody the universe and I know that the universe isn't straight peaceful or destructive but there always trying to achieve some sort of BALANCE. I've always tried to achieve balance in everything. If I'm being to much of a pushover and too peaceful, well then I get aggressive and kind of an asshole. Once I've become too aggressive then I swap back to peacefulness. I know sometimes peace means reloading your guns. I don't accomodate for things that may seem unpleasant to think of. I do think of "what if I have no purpose or meaning?" Everything that happens is by random creation and destruction. I am totally ok with nihilism. I believe it is some sort of salvation.
Everything is relative and so is your entire point of existence. It only has meaning when compared. I am peaceful because I believe all materialism will eventually end in absolute nothingness anyway. So I ask myself does it REALLY matter if x happens or y happens or z happens. Is it REALLY worth getting upset about? Sure if it disturbs my peace for no good reason then I get very upset but most of the time the answer is no.
Why do 9's not post very much? Because the internet is littered with assholes who do cause unneccesary conflict out of the safety of they're homes and in the end if they aren't already kind of picking up what you're putting down I see no point in arguing.
Not always as passive as depicted in descriptions. I can be your best friend or make your life hell, you choose not me. I choose the fence until then and I'm sticking to it until I have a reason to sway either way.
I don't like explaining myself. My thinking is cloudy and hazy and if you don't already understand you probably won't ever understand so I just save me some breath and them some time and drop it.
9w8s are chaotic neutral
9w1s are lawful neutral
balanced Pure neutral
Written on impulse with little check from my secondary 5w6 but we usually keep him hidden in the closet. Some of him has spilled into this post but usually hes no fun. =)