disintegrating nine's are very self-aware, and they know for a fact when they are being used or when their future plans will not work out. this is why they are moving towards disintegration (six) to begin with. nines that have been moving towards disintegration for a very long time can start to look like fours and fives, and of course sixes. these nines may look like well balanced fours or fives, but in reality they are nines that have been avoiding interpersonal relationships for a long time. explanation: secretely they want to get out of solitude, and back out there merging themselves with other people, but they feel safer staying indoors in solitude. nines are, at their core, based on interpersonal relationships. they want it, and they need it in order to get better. interpersonal relationships is what bring nines happiness in life. so they will always dream about interpersonal relationships, but will however still avoid it, just like fives may do.
when nines who are prone to disintegration is evolved in interpersonal relationships they are likely to turn out with paranoid-like features much like that of a six. they second guess themselves, and doubt others. and since they are predominantly gut-based (nine) and head-aligned (six) they are likely to assume the outcome of the future in order to avoid what might wreck them.
sensors in this regard, tend to hope and dream for better outcomes while trying to stay as realistic about the possible outcomes. they can float up into the sky in search for happiness among the clouds just like any other enneagram type and stay there for quite some time, but eventually they will want to grab a hold of one of the clouds and come back down to earth, realistically however- they can't capture clouds, and they know that. and yes, when i say clouds i mean hopes, dreams, general happiness, etc.
because of their main type (nine) and its good-willed core and strong sense of hope, they have a hard time turning down hopes and dreams, whether it be their own hopes and dreams or others. hope is what drives the nines. which is why people tend to call them doormats. but truth of the matter is, that they hope for a better outcome while you're stomping all over them. nines believe in second chances. once, twice, three times, four; they will let you run them over simply beause they believe in something that might not even be there. because they believe in you; they believe that there is good in you. but they won't tell you about these second chances that they are giving you. and even if they do tell you about these second chances, they'll most likely only give you hints and then hope that you'll catch on sooner or later. and they do this simply because they believe that it is not in their rightful place to change who you are, you'll have to do it yourself. eventually, when none of these seeds (hints) take root, they'll become angry, maybe even vindictive. because it proves to them, once again, like so many times before, that the person they've put their fate in, the person they wanted to merge with, is just as fucked in the head like everyone else, including themselves. once this happens they might turn vicious and backstabbing. they might even cut you out of their life completely. and when they do, you will be left breathless wonder "what happened?".
sensors in this regard (SP), does not easily forgive. in fact they may not ever.
nines moving towards disintegration (six) is all about avoiding. they want to avoid bad feelings, they want to avoid thinking about the problem, they want to avoid all of these things that make them feel worthless, useless, without purpose, things that makes them want to bang their heads against the wall repeatedly (because nothing they do ever works). the most common way to avoid these problems, for a nine, is to sleep it off as soon as possible, and if that does not work they will try to drown their sorrows in gluttony. and when i say gluttony i do not necessarily mean food, it can mean beverages of all kind as well (usually non-alcoholic because experienced nines moving towards disintegration knows that alochol makes them feel worse), but usually it's about food or beverages that can boost their happiness (sugar content), or they'll use stronger narcotics like benzos or amphetamines when nothing else works.
these nines are prone to sleep deprevation, panic attacks, social anxiety, agoraphobia, bipolar type ii, addiction, mental breakdown, catatonia, excessive anger (even violence) over little things, and shiczophrenia.
written by michael angell
disintegrating nine (self-preservation subtype)