I've given up try to introspect who I am, I've decided it's like happiness, you only know it when have it. If try seeking it you'll never find it. So far it's worked out for the most part I'm definitely moving to three and feeling healthy as a nine.
There was one time I was like 6(definitly like 1st or 2nd grade, maybe before then) or around then, I got stabbed in the arm with a pencil by an older girl(like maybe high school), and they only someone found out about it was because another student saw it and told someone.
I feels such conflicting emotions on that last it's not funny, I feel trapped and bad that I feel trapped, I should be happy to do it, but then it's not true to me, but I want to help people, loop
And, I subconsciously agree with people too, like I was with them, or shared the experience. It's weird and I never noticed it until a friend pointed it out. It can be things I don't agree with or would or would like. It can be a statement like "them:taking a dick in the ass is awesome, me: yeah, them: sweet you're gay too, I had no idea me: wait!? what?? no, no no, I was just.... ummm...agreeing... that ummm.....yeeaahhh, nice weather isn't?"