I know that many comedians are 7's, and I know that many comedians have troubled pasts which they try to escape with drugs, alcohol, and other addictions. So, if Comedians = 7's and Comedians = escapists, do 7's = escapists? Is the motive behind 7's to avoid true pain, even if it means creating other serious problems to keep occupied?
I ask because I wonder about my own enneagram type. I thought that I faced my problems head on, and didn't avoid them like the typical 7, but now I see that the problems I have been facing are only decoy problems that I have created for myself in an attempt to avoid my real problems.
I had an eating disorder - an excellent way to avoid thinking about anything but an eating disorder.
I have an adrenaline addiction. Whenever I am feeling depressed I have an urge to google frightening images. I am terrified of the images, because they are disturbing, but subconsciously being scared also makes me feel alive. If I don't do it I am depressed, and I hate being depressed because I can't do anything.
Do you do things to make yourself feel alive and "on"? I don't identify with the typical 7 vision of optimistic happiness because I imagine that the person underneath is shallow and dead, only smiling because they can't do anything else. When I am at my best, I am absolutely high on life. I love it. I joke around and pretend and I get this wonderful feeling of being powerful and invincible, like I can accomplish anything.