[marckos]

m destroying myself from within because I'm not good enough and don't like living up to expectations, especially my expectations of myself.

I'm also very distant and like my privacy/need to wallow in my own emotions. Sometimes I feel like no one could love someone like me then again sometimes I feel like they could, I just don't love myself enough. Who has a nihilistic approach to life if he has no So to connect to. I'm also highly defensive and emotionally volatile when someone tells me how I should behave and who I am. Not so much if you tell me to get a bucket of water (depends on how nicely you asked).


I fucking hate the army...why do we need to kill other people, plus the structure they impose on individuals is repulsive.

I hate my jawline and wish that didn't look like my dad -.- it's not sharp like I would like it to be (did consider plastic surgery, but I'd rather not change what I have been born with). Some days I consider that I look too goofy and not sexy enough...I have....body image problems even if others tell me I look good I don't think so to be honest.

I know I wine a lot and I'm moody, it's disgusting and I did tell the other INFPs the same thing...so I guess that makes me a hypocrite as well.


I hate this type and I don't want to be type 6 because it embodies everything I dislike in people, this fear/hate is probably what makes me 6w5 thou...-.- which will once again drive me into that self loathing pit of despair I painstakingly crawled out of for 6 years now.

Did any of you experience feelings of self hate, despair, a sense of wrongness and a gut reaction based on anger, fear of losing yourselves and disgust when you figured out that you were probably a 6?

Hi!, INTP 6w5 1w2 4w5 Sp/sx...clouse enough to you, ok Im going to star.

I hate myself, Im unhappy, I feel like a failure, my anxiety is extreme almost to the point of vomit, I have Napoleonic complex with inteligence, always second guesing myself, I suffer paranoia, have onely 1 acquitance, I feel like I dont deserve my girlfriend, feel defective.

Its suck, I wish I was something more like a Kick ass 8w9 or know-all 5w6, not a cowarly 6w5 with envious or others (4) and mommy of all 1w2.



here *give @Rim a cookie*

[FreeBeer]

Hi!, INTP 6w5 1w2 4w5 Sp/sx...clouse enough to you, ok Im going to star.

I hate myself, Im unhappy, I feel like a failure, my anxiety is extreme almost to the point of vomit, I have Napoleonic complex with inteligence, always second guesing myself, I suffer paranoia, have onely 1 acquitance, I feel like I dont deserve my girlfriend, feel defective.

Its suck, I wish I was something more like a Kick ass 8w9 or know-all 5w6, not a cowarly 6w5 with envious or others (4) and mommy of all 1w2.

here *give @Rim a cookie*

for any type 6 the most important thing to remember is that despite being skeptical about the outside, we have to learn to trust ourselves. Developing internal strength and courage is very important and helpful in the life of a 6. Integration to 9 is all about learning to trust in ourselves. easyer said then done, but it really does help. I'm becoming more assertive through this and more willing to expose my own thought processes about things that concern me. The forums are good place to start.

ommnomm *steals moar cookies*