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Enneatype 5 and wings.

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#1 ·
profound vision
objective insight
innovative exploration

comprehensive knowledge
intense preoccupation
cynical argumentation

eccentric nihilism
phobic delirium
psychotic paralysis

Type five people care more than most about the inner workings of things. They can become trapped by a compulsion to figure things out. One of their talents is an intuitive ability to directly perceive the structure of reality

Except in rare cases, people of type five show a flavoring from one of the two adjacent wing points, so we can say they are five with a four wing (5/4) or five with a six wing (5/6).

Like all humans, fives also come in three instinctual flavors: social (5sc), sexual (5sx), or self-preserving (5sp). In addition, fives also experience nine distinct levels of mental-emotional health (briefly described by the phrases at the top of this page). Therefore, it is possible to distinguish fifty-four distinct subflavors of type five.​


five with four wing


general description

Average 5/4 is the prototype personality for research scientists. Analytical and detached from their emotions, but passionate about beauty and truth, they want to find the ultimate, simple explanation for everything. Their intellectual fiveness makes them likely to engage in long, professorial monologues, while their four-wing gives them a shy self-consciousness. Unlike the more depressive 4/5, they are likely to have a generally optimistic view, although they can get depressed if they become overwhelmed by the world's demands. 5/4s are usually less interested in social interactions than the more other-dependent 5/6.


balanced and transcendent states

Balanced 5/4 is more able to participate in life. When the fiveish desire to withdraw and sort things out is no longer compulsive, then the consciously chosen time alone becomes a tool for understanding the world, rather than an entrapping habit. The fourish passion for beauty emerges as the conscious result of harnessing the emotions rather than being their slave. Healthy 5/4s begin to deeply understand the simple, elegant way that the awesome complexity of the world emerges from fundamental principles. They find great joy in watching and learning.

When the perception of five and the passion of four are augmented by eight's power and leadership, plus one's intuitive wisdom, clear comprehensions can be transmitted to others. Very balanced 5/4s can be tremendously creative teachers of How The World Works, who explain things with clean, elegant sentences. Yet for all its simple clarity, their teaching carries with it a profound appreciation for the subtle beauty of Creation. Come with me on a journey of discovery. Let's look together at the awsome profundity of Nature and Consciousness.


unbalanced and unhealthy states

Unbalanced 5/4 gets lost in the details. The compulsive analysis of five can lead to elaborate pseudo-logical constructions designed to explain everything. The four-wing's emotionality adds a flavor of dramatic hopelessness. Others Simply Do Not Understand. No one could understand. So 5/4 retreats to a place of safety, hoping to escape from view, continuing to uncover the truth. There is little to no social involvement.

In the extreme, the panic and scattered mania of seven combine with twoish self-congratulatory hysteria. In a seeming reversal, 5/4 can come back into the world, awkward and excitable, ready to bolt but equally ready to passionately defend a bizarre, baroque fantasy world. As inner tension builds, schizoid withdrawal becomes more and more likely. The end result is a kind of terrified fugue, completely cut off from reality. The only escape from the constant overwhelming chaos is inward.


physical appearance

5/4 is generally not much into appearance. Reasonable, ordinary clothing, not too bold. Comfort is quite important. Glasses are common Ă‘ maybe a result of a great deal of careful examination of tiny objects during childhood? There is often a rumpled, dissheveled quality. The exceptions are those well-dressed 5/4's whose four-wings impel them towards an aesthetically appealing appearance. Also, note that sometimes unhealthy 5/4s can dress and act in sevenishly colorful ways.


callings

Some 5/4s find work that combines intellect and aesthetics. Cosmologists, futurists, science fiction authors. Others dive deeply into some highly specialized discipline, becoming computer programmers, nuclear physicists, theoretical scientists, molecular biologists, surface scientists, or any of a thousand other highly technical jobs. There are 5/4 science reporters, poets, painters, and photographers. Of course, 5/4s can also be found doing many other kinds of work.​



five with six wing


general description

Suspicion combines with analytical detachment in average 5/6. The fiveish desire to know the reasons for everything combines with sixish skepticism to create a dry, sometimes intolerant personality. Because the six-wing wants to be liked, they want to be sociable and have friends. But the interaction of the sixish mistrust and the fiveish analysis makes it difficult for them to get close to very many people. They may have more trouble approaching others than the more sociable 6/5. Unlike 5/4, 5/6 may be more interested in politics than nature, more interested in conspiracy theories than physics theories.


balanced and transcendent states


Balanced 5/6 gains social ease. Deep perception and serene faith combine for a kind of knowing that focuses on the truth of human interactions. Healthy 5/6 overcomes the fear of intimacy and finds satisfaction in genuine relationships. A balance is struck between the urge to withdraw to sort things out and the desire to feel safe among trusted friends. The need diminishes to protect against deceit by constantly analyzing people, leading to greater comfort and depth in friendships.

The best of 5/6 brings together the powerful insight of five, the stamina and leadership of eight, the deep faith and genuineness of six, and the inner peace of nine. Extremely advanced 5/6 is a leader, using a magical level of perception to help others see themselves more clearly. Inspiring trust and respect, they explain human interactions in a way that teaches people to see the wholeness in the parts, demonstrating through their actions that society is one body.


unbalanced and unhealthy states


Unbalanced 5/6 becomes afraid of people. Mistrust interacts with reductionistic analysis, and the world begins to seem more and more threatening. Threeish competitive urges might emerge, combining with sevenish mania to create a kind of intense, argumentative combativeness that hides a deep sense of inadequacy. This unbalanced state turns people away, leading to a greater sense of isolation. Unhealthy 5/6 tends to rationalize that most people are not honest anyway, and since other people fail to recognize the value of their brilliant ideas, they are not worth knowing at all.

In the worst cases, paranoia and anxiety lead 5/6 into a terrifying spiral in which increasingly bizarre fabrications may be used to explain hallucinated meanings into even the most mundane events. Numbers, names, and shapes can take on enormous significance. Vast, intricate, imaginary conspiracies are clearly seen as Truth. The whole world is warped into a shape that supports an increasingly baroque inner model. There is a time during which violent acts are possible, just before the inner system collapses. In the end, the house of cards can fall suddenly, leaving 5/6 in a trembling fugue of total withdrawal.


physical appearance


5/6 is interested in fitting in, but not standing out, unless there is extreme identification with ideas, in which case there can be a tortured kind of threeish social aggression. Clothing is usually conservative and often quite understated. Sometimes there is a coarse, gritty sort of appearance. Hair might be a bit messy, glasses askew. The six wing (and its threeish stress) sometimes brings in a desire to look sharp and professional, but it is not usually accomplished as smoothly as a real three would do it. Healthy 5/6 often likes to dress well, although there usually must be a conscious effort.


callings

Some 5/6es find work that combines non-threatening social interaction with rigorous intellectual exercise. Technical test engineers, chess players, historians, museum curators. Others use their social perceptions more directly, becoming psychologists, social commentators, novelists, social theoreticians, science popularizers. Many become scientists of different kinds, from embryologists to materials specialists. There are 5/6 magicians, psychic debunkers, computer engineers, interpreters, and math teachers. Of course, 5/6es can also be found doing many other kinds of work.​

type five
 
#3 ·
My anal retentiveness might be appreciated by others who also prefer walls of text left justified.

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Fives

9 Levels of Mental-Emotional Health

profound vision
objective insight
innovative exploration

comprehensive knowledge
intense preoccupation
cynical argumentation

eccentric nihilism
phobic delirium
psychotic paralysis

Fives Overview

Type five people care more than most about the inner workings of things. They can become trapped by a compulsion to figure things out. One of their talents is an intuitive ability to directly perceive the structure of reality

Except in rare cases, people of type five show a flavoring from one of the two adjacent wing points, so we can say they are five with a four wing (5/4) or five with a six wing (5/6).

Like all humans, fives also come in three instinctual flavors: social (5sc), sexual (5sx), or self-preserving (5sp). In addition, fives also experience nine distinct levels of mental-emotional health (briefly described by the phrases at the top of this page). Therefore, it is possible to distinguish fifty-four distinct subflavors of type five.


Five with Four Wing (5w4)

General Description

Average 5/4 is the prototype personality for research scientists. Analytical and detached from their emotions, but passionate about beauty and truth, they want to find the ultimate, simple explanation for everything. Their intellectual fiveness makes them likely to engage in long, professorial monologues, while their four-wing gives them a shy self-consciousness. Unlike the more depressive 4/5, they are likely to have a generally optimistic view, although they can get depressed if they become overwhelmed by the world's demands. 5/4s are usually less interested in social interactions than the more other-dependent 5/6.

Balanced and Transcendent States

Balanced 5/4 is more able to participate in life. When the fiveish desire to withdraw and sort things out is no longer compulsive, then the consciously chosen time alone becomes a tool for understanding the world, rather than an entrapping habit. The fourish passion for beauty emerges as the conscious result of harnessing the emotions rather than being their slave. Healthy 5/4s begin to deeply understand the simple, elegant way that the awesome complexity of the world emerges from fundamental principles. They find great joy in watching and learning.

When the perception of five and the passion of four are augmented by eight's power and leadership, plus one's intuitive wisdom, clear comprehensions can be transmitted to others. Very balanced 5/4s can be tremendously creative teachers of How The World Works, who explain things with clean, elegant sentences. Yet for all its simple clarity, their teaching carries with it a profound appreciation for the subtle beauty of Creation. Come with me on a journey of discovery. Let's look together at the awsome profundity of Nature and Consciousness.

Unbalanced and Unhealthy States

Unbalanced 5/4 gets lost in the details. The compulsive analysis of five can lead to elaborate pseudo-logical constructions designed to explain everything. The four-wing's emotionality adds a flavor of dramatic hopelessness. Others Simply Do Not Understand. No one could understand. So 5/4 retreats to a place of safety, hoping to escape from view, continuing to uncover the truth. There is little to no social involvement.

In the extreme, the panic and scattered mania of seven combine with twoish self-congratulatory hysteria. In a seeming reversal, 5/4 can come back into the world, awkward and excitable, ready to bolt but equally ready to passionately defend a bizarre, baroque fantasy world. As inner tension builds, schizoid withdrawal becomes more and more likely. The end result is a kind of terrified fugue, completely cut off from reality. The only escape from the constant overwhelming chaos is inward.

Physical Appearance

5/4 is generally not much into appearance. Reasonable, ordinary clothing, not too bold. Comfort is quite important. Glasses are common Ă‘ maybe a result of a great deal of careful examination of tiny objects during childhood? There is often a rumpled, dissheveled quality. The exceptions are those well-dressed 5/4's whose four-wings impel them towards an aesthetically appealing appearance. Also, note that sometimes unhealthy 5/4s can dress and act in sevenishly colorful ways.

Callings

Some 5/4s find work that combines intellect and aesthetics. Cosmologists, futurists, science fiction authors. Others dive deeply into some highly specialized discipline, becoming computer programmers, nuclear physicists, theoretical scientists, molecular biologists, surface scientists, or any of a thousand other highly technical jobs. There are 5/4 science reporters, poets, painters, and photographers. Of course, 5/4s can also be found doing many other kinds of work.


Five with Six Wing (5w6)

General Description

Suspicion combines with analytical detachment in average 5/6. The fiveish desire to know the reasons for everything combines with sixish skepticism to create a dry, sometimes intolerant personality. Because the six-wing wants to be liked, they want to be sociable and have friends. But the interaction of the sixish mistrust and the fiveish analysis makes it difficult for them to get close to very many people. They may have more trouble approaching others than the more sociable 6/5. Unlike 5/4, 5/6 may be more interested in politics than nature, more interested in conspiracy theories than physics theories.

Balanced and Transcendent States

Balanced 5/6 gains social ease. Deep perception and serene faith combine for a kind of knowing that focuses on the truth of human interactions. Healthy 5/6 overcomes the fear of intimacy and finds satisfaction in genuine relationships. A balance is struck between the urge to withdraw to sort things out and the desire to feel safe among trusted friends. The need diminishes to protect against deceit by constantly analyzing people, leading to greater comfort and depth in friendships.

The best of 5/6 brings together the powerful insight of five, the stamina and leadership of eight, the deep faith and genuineness of six, and the inner peace of nine. Extremely advanced 5/6 is a leader, using a magical level of perception to help others see themselves more clearly. Inspiring trust and respect, they explain human interactions in a way that teaches people to see the wholeness in the parts, demonstrating through their actions that society is one body.

Unbalanced and Unhealthy States

Unbalanced 5/6 becomes afraid of people. Mistrust interacts with reductionistic analysis, and the world begins to seem more and more threatening. Threeish competitive urges might emerge, combining with sevenish mania to create a kind of intense, argumentative combativeness that hides a deep sense of inadequacy. This unbalanced state turns people away, leading to a greater sense of isolation. Unhealthy 5/6 tends to rationalize that most people are not honest anyway, and since other people fail to recognize the value of their brilliant ideas, they are not worth knowing at all.

In the worst cases, paranoia and anxiety lead 5/6 into a terrifying spiral in which increasingly bizarre fabrications may be used to explain hallucinated meanings into even the most mundane events. Numbers, names, and shapes can take on enormous significance. Vast, intricate, imaginary conspiracies are clearly seen as Truth. The whole world is warped into a shape that supports an increasingly baroque inner model. There is a time during which violent acts are possible, just before the inner system collapses. In the end, the house of cards can fall suddenly, leaving 5/6 in a trembling fugue of total withdrawal.

Physical Appearance

5/6 is interested in fitting in, but not standing out, unless there is extreme identification with ideas, in which case there can be a tortured kind of threeish social aggression. Clothing is usually conservative and often quite understated. Sometimes there is a coarse, gritty sort of appearance. Hair might be a bit messy, glasses askew. The six wing (and its threeish stress) sometimes brings in a desire to look sharp and professional, but it is not usually accomplished as smoothly as a real three would do it. Healthy 5/6 often likes to dress well, although there usually must be a conscious effort.

Callings

Some 5/6es find work that combines non-threatening social interaction with rigorous intellectual exercise. Technical test engineers, chess players, historians, museum curators. Others use their social perceptions more directly, becoming psychologists, social commentators, novelists, social theoreticians, science popularizers. Many become scientists of different kinds, from embryologists to materials specialists. There are 5/6 magicians, psychic debunkers, computer engineers, interpreters, and math teachers. Of course, 5/6es can also be found doing many other kinds of work.​
 
#5 ·
unbalanced and unhealthy states


Unbalanced 5/4 gets lost in the details. The compulsive analysis of five can lead to elaborate pseudo-logical constructions designed to explain everything. The four-wing's emotionality adds a flavor of dramatic hopelessness.
100% accurate - "elaborate pseudo-logical constructions" are my greatest time waster. Why leave something simple when you can make it needlessly complex?​

I tend to apply this kind of thinking to things like behavior, psychology, and language, rather than the purely scientific. I have a strong wing four, so yes, it's full of unnecessary drama and symbolism. That's what makes overanalyzing fun!​
 
#18 ·
I'm a 5 - Balanced wings. My Tritype is SP/SO/SX 5wB-9w1-4w5, my MBTI is IxTJ and my SLOAN+ is |R|cxaI if anyone is interested. I think although Enneagram, MBTI/KTS, Socionics and Big 5/SLOAN have a lot of cross-over, they are not the same, each one has their merits. HEXACO also looks like it may have some merit as well.
 
#20 ·
Thanks for the Article is was facinating.
This totally doesn't discribe me but in same ways can relate :-/ . I am an ENFP and a type 5 with a 4 wing and am totally different :( I love science phycology and am now studying nursing but in my other career was an interior designer and visual merchandiser and have studyed fashion and design! Love people and love caring for others but totally covert my own space and love independance. It just goes to show how different as individuals we can be even tho we are so similare.
 
#21 ·
I have tested frequently as both but I tend to lean toward 5w4, especially in the appearance section. I do see "the interaction of the sixish mistrust and the fiveish analysis makes it difficult for them to get close to very many people" as applying to me when I am around others. I am guilty of the unbalanced traits of a 5w4 but I'm more interested in sciences and the 'callings' of a 6 wing.

Somehow, I consistently test as tertiary 4w5 and usually as secondary 1w2 (though once it came out 1w9)

I would type myself as a 5wB, 1w2, 4w5
 
#22 · (Edited)
"5/6 is interested in fitting in, but not standing out, unless there is extreme identification with ideas, in which case there can be a tortured kind of threeish social aggression."

The pick up artist 'Mystery' that the blog below shows as a type 5 would be the perfect example of the above quote, with his invented concept of 'peacocking'.

I did an Enneagram test a while ago and scored 19 points in '5', 18 points in '6', 16 points in '9' and 15 points in '1'. Seemingly it's not rare for people to feel that they're a 5w9. Reading the blog: The Enneagram Blogspot made me conclude that I'm most likely a 5w6 where my 6 wing is fairly balanced and giving me that type 9 sense of inner peace. I suppose that also probably makes me a 5-9-3 tritype, 'the explainer'.

I also relate pretty well to the type 5 sx/so/sp descriptions, mostly the social one. When it comes to my 6 wing though, I'm generally not (consciously) distrusting of people, except that in the past I've had feelings of inadequacy and it took me a while to believe that my girlfriend was really into me (5-9-3 tritype trait?).

Me being a 5w6 also fits with me being an INTJ. I'd almost be inclined to think that '5' represents my Ni/Te, '6' my tertiary Fi and '3' my inferior Se. Perhaps the '8' leadership comes from Ni/Te being balanced by a more developed 'Fi'.
 
#26 ·
after simply reading the first part of the article before even getting to any parts about the wings, this is what I've got. so now tell me which I am. madman or genius. I'm thinking a bit more twords madman myself. 387,420,489 . that's right, 387,420,489.

wanna know what this means? simple. that's how meny possible personality combinations there are in the enneagram. and that's including if you're counting the nine possible levels of mental health the persona may be experianceing at the moment.
now I suck with numbers, but I used a calculator, and I think you'll find my proscess is pretty good. especially for it being the first time I've even been able to show or explain any sort of process with anything math related. (that was my whole problem with algebra XP)

so here we go. this is how I got that number. I took it in steps working my way up from the small scale to bigger and bigger untill it coverd the entire tri type combination possibility. first there are the 9 levels of mental health and the 3 "distinct flavors" mentioned for every number personality 1-9 in the enneagram. these are the 2 things I think are the smallest parts in the combination.


3-------l (5w4, 5w6, and rare but still possible 5w5)
______l
______l-81
3-l___ l (flavors. Sp, Sx, and Sc.)
__l-27-l
9-l (mental health levels)


this diagram shows how I figured that there are NOT 54, but really 81 subtypes of 5. and every other number 1-9 for that matter. because looking at it this way, there are a possible 27 combinations between the 9 lvls of MH, and the 3 flavors Sx,Sc, and Sp. that's the lowest part there. now you have that possible 27 between each of the 3 main 5 types. 5w5, 5w6, and 5w4, so that's 3 X 27 right? 81 combinations of 5 in total. same for other 1-9.


so now we got 81 for each of the 9 types right? 81 9 times. so:

9---l
___l-729
81-l

729 combinations between all 9 types. but it doesn't stop there right? there are 3 numbers in a tri type, and that's what your enneagram comes in right? a tri type! so this tir type is a combination of any 3 numbers 1-9 correct? (wings already counted) well here's what I did next.


9--------------l (2nd # in tritype. 1-9)
___________l-531,441
81--l_______l (in each of above nine, are 81 combos. with possible number below.)
___ l-59,049-l
729-l (combos in 1-9.the last number in the tri type. can be any of these.)


now what the heck is this you'r wondering? well here we go with the explination. so the last number in the tri type being 1 of the possible 729 various combinations of variations in the 1-9 types. this combins with the same posible 729 combinations of variations that could appear as the 2nd number of the type, and the first.

but to make sure I'm putting the numbers together right.. well I don't just times the possible 729 for 3rd type with the possible 729 for 2nd type. especially because with enneagram, the 2nd type personality is affected by the 3rd type personality. so the more combinations that are possible with the 3rd type, the same combinations are possible in the 2nd type when you consider it alone. but when thinking of the whole tri type, and that the 3rd type affects the 2nd...well now there are combinations between the possible combinations of the 2nd and possible combinations of the 3rd. right?

so, each of the 1-9 have 81 possible subtypes. and the 729 is just the 81 subtypes of the 9 main types counted together. but now in the 2nd number of the tritype, the 3rd number can beconsiderd a subpart. right? the 3rd is a subpart of the 2nd, and both a subpart of the 1st. because each lower number affects the higher ones. so back to the diagram

9--------------l (2nd # in tritype. 1-9)
___________l-531,441
81--l_______l (in each of above nine, are 81 combos. with possible number below.)
___ l-59,049-l
729-l (combos in 1-9.the last number in the tri type. can be any of these.)

I'm doing a similar thing with the 2nd number as I did with the 3rd, except that this time I am factoring in how all the combinations of the 3rd affect the 2nd. the possible combinations between the 3rd AND the 2nd. so I'm starting with smaller and working to bigger. the number 729 may seem big, but those are for the 3rd number which is a smaller part of your personality than the 2nd. so the 729 total from the 3rds combos is smaller than the 81 subtypes found in each of the 9 main types that togather make up the 729 combinations for the 2nd number (not counting the affects of the 3rds comniations obviously.)
so, lets say the 2nd number of the trutype is 1. there are 81 types of 1 (again not including the effects of the lower parts (the 3rd number of the tritype) will have on it) and after counting each of these 81 subtypes, we can count that which ever one it turns out to be, it will be affected in one of 729 different ways, because that's how meny possible combinations exist in the 3rd number of the tritype which affcts the 2nd number. so for each of there 81 subs of the 1, there are 729 variations. finally, 81 X 729. we get 59,049. that's how meny possible variations of 1 we can get for the 2nd number of the tri type as affectd by the third.
now it's possible for any number 1-9 to be the second, and each one as we know know has 59,049 variations. that's 59,049 9 times. so, 59,049 X 9 gives us 531,441. those are the possible combinations/variations for the 2nd and 3rd numbers of the tritype.

PHEW!!! well, that was really quite a lot to go through wasn't it? perhaps we should just take a quick break and relaxe our brains for a bit. let everything sit for a minute so we can start again with our minds clear and ready for more.


AAAANNNY WAYS. so now we have 531,441 for the 2nd and 3rd numbers right? awsome. now, what aout the first and biggest number in our tritypes? yes that's right. the biggest. meaning we're almost done, so bear with me just alittle bit longer here. I'm almost through with all my crazy insanity. so, next diagram!

9------------------------l
__________________l-387,420,489
81-------l__________ l
_______l-43,046,721-l
531,441-l


now I'm sure we all get this one now right? this on is exactly the same as the last one except the bottum number is now bigger. so of corse, the resaulting numbers are now bigger as well. you could also look at the description and look for everytime I mentioned the 2nd and 3rd numbers of the tri type. and now you could use the same description if you switch ech "3rd" to a "2nd" and ech already existing "2nd" to a "1st".

so yes. this diagram means I used the same proscess and did the excact same thing between the number representing the combinations for the 2nd/3rd number of the tritype, and the 1st number for the tritype, as I did between the number representing the combinations for the 3rd number of the tritype, and the 2nd number of the tritype.

531,441 variations for each of the 81 subtypes of which ever number would be first mean 531,441 X 81 makeing 43,046,721. that's possible in ech of the 9 types, so that means 43,046,721 X 9 which makes 387,420,489. that's right, between all the possible combos for the 1st, for the 2nd, for the 3rd numbers of the tri type, and all the combinations between them there are a total of 43,046,721 possible variations of personality with in the enneagram theroy.

now of corse I said VARIATIONS, so of corse there arn't really 43,046,721 DISTINCT KINDS of personality. but this is basically all the even smallest little ways in which any 2 people you pick, no matter how similar, may be different from one another. even if thier tritype is the same. because although this was all about combinations with in the tri type, this took into account factores of thepersonality that arn't labeld with in the tritype. though they are apart of your personality that you can find and learn about through your tritype.


so, after all that hell I've just put you guys through, (and I appologize profusly. I really didn't think it would turn out that long.) what do you think? crazy or genius? I'm still thinkin crazy.
 
#29 ·
I've read that page..it's a good one. It describes me quite well, except for wanting to be sociable and have friends. It's the first source I've seen that discusses how 5w6 types can focus on social theory and not just traditional science. This includes Freud and B.F. Skinner, for example.
 
#30 ·
The OP is most helpful. It became hard to tell whether I am 5w6 or 6w5. The 6 wing is outspoken in such a way that it sometimes outpowers the 5, and along with it came the typical doubt on my own type :)
The 5w6 description is perfect in its simplicity and thus most reassuring.

But curious to know. Do other 5w6 sometimes feel the same ("Am I not a 6w5?)?
 
#31 ·
I'm sure they do, it's totally understandable and reasonable that they would.

I remember I was one of the biggest " I wanna grow and and be (insert every thinkable job that is big and in anyway hepfull to anyone job here) and help everyone everywhere and make the world totally perfect and nice and (basically everything.good that is.)" kid ever. totall 2w1 1w2 all over the place. with of corse some other energetick and nice personality thrown in there.

now I test as a 9w1 (I wounder how that "1" got there?)
5w6 (5? something of a 6 or with a 6 wing I can see. 6w5 even. but a 5? well I guess I do like to think about things and figure them out and stuff. take stuff a part and put everything all together in my head. quiet observer always tearing it up figureing it out and messin it around.)
and a 2w1 (ftw? 2w1?!? well I did used to like helping people, but now? nah no way. and what's with the double w1s huh? I'm not that ideal. infact I let just about everything go and don;t bother with perfection. everything goes eventually that is. but a 2?)


so yah, reality (such a stupid thing it is) just suddently hit me hard in the face one day when I was astill WAAAAAY to little for a reality check, and boom there goes the 2. "the world is a horrible dirty nasty place, and nothing could ever save it. it's such a hopeless task, why even attmpt to bother? could spend my whole life on that and it would be a wasted life, it wouldn't do any good for anything. this world's just to messed up." everything's nice and I wanna help the world 2w1, suddently melted into a 9w(wait, STILL a one? well I guess part of me had to be left over. couldn't just COMPLEATLY become a totally new person right?) eventually with all that lost hope and energy, why bother? a sit around do nothin but watch 5 worked its way in there. eventually makeing my a thinker, already had the w6 though. and still I find that somewhere in there I 2w1 still supposedly exists. whatever.


also, no one answerd my question from my artical type post above. what am I exactly? madman or geniouse? doubt anyone could ever see me as some kind of geniouse, but I'd atleast like to think that I'm kinda smart. maybe...
 
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