On the enneagram 5 descriptions, I've been reading that we desire to feel competent and knowledgeable to protect ourselves from outside threats. At the same time, we have deep insecurities about how we function in the world; we don't want to be overwhelmed from these threats. We want to conserve our resources and energy.
This ties into the idea of privacy. I often feel that I am too private because I never tell people, even my closest friends and family members anything personal about myself. I am involved in many different activities and have a wide range of interests, but my brain seems to categorize these intimate interests in a private place, where they will never be willingly shared with others. If, for example, two people from two of the groups meet who know me, they would know me by completely different interests. I am the same person but I never tell one person about the other interest I have or vice versa. At the same time, I'm reluctant to engage with new people. I don't trust many people and never try to promote any of my accomplishments.
I heard that our vice is avarice. We can often be greedy in hording our resources to the exclusion of those closest to us. Or we may stay away and avoid engaging others to conserve energy/time. From a young age, I have felt no need in revealing personal information about myself. I will engage people with ideas that arise in conversation if they are relevant but I hate talking about myself as if I'm someone important or who knows something. I suppose to many people I seem like a secret agent of sorts.
Anyway, I was wondering if any of the 5's on this forum are private creatures. Do you relate to both my personal experience and to the description of our type? Do you find avarice to be necessarily a bad thing, something to be overcome, or is it healthy in some circumstances? What are your thoughts on your own privacy? Is there some deep insecurity or fear involved in privacy? If so, should we attempt to overcome this need, desire, want?