I hate people

They are disgusting. They are good for nothing. They do nothing but make your life worse. Even your neighbors. Even your brothers and sisters. Even your parents. Even everyone in your family. Even everyone you know and will know in the world. For me the only reason people exist is to make your life miserable, make it worse, mock every move you make, but no, they are far better than to do something like compliment or give positive feed back. And they certainly far better than to love someone honestly and truly! Because they are tough people!!
Well I'm tough too. And I can show you how tough I am when I ignore you. Yes, to me every person on this planet is a moving bag of miserable-emitting monster.
Bu I still have hope. There are people who are still good. They are extremely rare. I will not seek them, but I will leave it to fate to handle that. It will happen when the time is right.

I didn't post this to get sympathy or anger people. It is in the spam section for this reason. I only post this as a reminder for myself that people will always hurt you, not by accident, not because they didn't mean it, bu they do it because they can. And since they can never accept what you do or how you do it, then I will do what I want when I want where I want. And let's see how many of those people will rise against me. That is when I will take them out or die trying.

Have you ever considered throttling an inflatable dolly? The uncanny valley of likeness makes you feel as if you're taking out your hatred on a human being. Just so its easier to let it all go.

I haven't myself.

I'm INFP too, would it help if you punched me in the face?

Nobody promised life would be good and fair.

You know, there are people who experience great sorrows in their life. Millions of people out there live in poverty, who have been sold into the slave trade and have been beaten and abused and treated as well as vermin. Yet some of them can hold their heads high and carry on with their life once they are freed (if they are freed at all). Why? how can they carry on after all that mistreatment?

If you think it can't get worse, it will. And if you think it can't get better, it will. Leaving biases to be cleared by 'fate' is resigning your control to chance. Chance doesn't do old buddies favours. If people live in their beliefs without even trying to disprove them, they will live in their biases and be controlled by them. If you're so sure, why not test the limits of your claims against many things in reality? isn't coming to conclusions and pre judgments and living in bias what you don't like?

People are only human. Fallible, selfish, judgmental, irrational, erratic. A more balanced view, has you take into consideration the other things that may be seen as more positive. Who are you really hurting by hating everyone else? if they don't care, why would they care about you hating everyone? hate is poison, and it only corrupts you. Hate turns you into the very thing you despise. It's not getting back at humanity, and saying "look at what you've made me". It's only hurting you.

You don't have to love everybody. Who does? I don't. But I don't hate either. I'm ambivalent towards most people. I think humans would do better to do less judging and more non attaching. Getting out of their own minds and getting some more perspective. Hate only makes you more human.

I'm sure you've been hurt and you're angry. But is hating everyone really going to help you? and more importantly, is this hate really justified?

Im sorry, I was just letting my anger out. I've been mistreated by all the people I know repeatedly lately, and not a single one apologised. If I hadn't written this I am sure I would have thrown myself from the window or something. And no Ectoplasm, I would never punch you in the face
And thank you for your post, Nova. You're right, hating just makes you as bad as the people you hate.

Originally Posted by boredToDeath

Im sorry, I was just letting my anger out. I've been mistreated by all the people I know repeatedly lately, and not a single one apologised. If I hadn't written this I am sure I would have thrown myself from the window or something. And no Ectoplasm, I would never punch you in the face
And thank you for your post, Nova. You're right, hating just makes you as bad as the people you hate.

You know what, get angry. To me, it paradoxically shows that you still care. I get really pissed off at people sometimes too, and i'm sure there will come many things in the future that will make you even more angry and hurt. I think it's ok to be angry and it's ok to express it (rather than needing to punch infps' in the face! :P). It just becomes corrosive when you let it consume you for too long.

Since this is technically a spam thread then I can vent.

The main reason that made me write this thread is that my father pushed me beyond my breaking point and I couldn't take much more of it. I didn't say anything but went to my room after clearly showing in a respectful way that I am angry. After going out of my room after a couple of hours, my parents, sitting in the living room watching tv, call me, and tell me that I must grow up and not be a child and stop being so sensitive. I knew that if I open my mouth I would say a lot of stuff that I would regret, so I just grabbed a cup of water and went back to my room. After a while my mother comes in to talk about some stuff related to registration in university, and then looks at me and tells me: you have no right to be mad at us because we did nothing wrong, we were just joking and we do that to each other but you are the only one who minds it. You should stop being so sensitive or else you will not be able to handle the people. So I tell her that when people make fun of me I don't care, it's when people close to me do that is what hurts me. So she tells me: we are people. Get used to us. I got really pissed off and told her: do you not care that I am sad? Won't you make a small change just so that I feel that someone loves me in this world?

I ran to the bathroom and I have been crying for an hour. I really feel helpless and unloved now. If my own family is not acceptimg something I have been born with and struggling to control it, then who will? I have been tolerating constant humiliation my entire life, and I am already getting treatment for social anxiety and I can't takethis anymore. I feel like my heart is going to explode out of my chest and my eyes will melt, and I feel like I don't even want to breathe anymore.

Originally Posted by boredToDeath

Since this is technically a spam thread then I can vent.

The main reason that made me write this thread is that my father pushed me beyond my breaking point and I couldn't take much more of it. I didn't say anything but went to my room after clearly showing in a respectful way that I am angry. After going out of my room after a couple of hours, my parents, sitting in the living room watching tv, call me, and tell me that I must grow up and not be a child and stop being so sensitive. I knew that if I open my mouth I would say a lot of stuff that I would regret, so I just grabbed a cup of water and went back to my room. After a while my mother comes in to talk about some stuff related to registration in university, and then looks at me and tells me: you have no right to be mad at us because we did nothing wrong, we were just joking and we do that to each other but you are the only one who minds it. You should stop being so sensitive or else you will not be able to handle the people. So I tell her that when people make fun of me I don't care, it's when people close to me do that is what hurts me. So she tells me: we are people. Get used to us. I got really pissed off and told her: do you not care that I am sad? Won't you make a small change just so that I feel that someone loves me in this world?

I ran to the bathroom and I have been crying for an hour. I really feel helpless and unloved now. If my own family is not acceptimg something I have been born with and struggling to control it, then who will? I have been tolerating constant humiliation my entire life, and I am already getting treatment for social anxiety and I can't takethis anymore. I feel like my heart is going to explode out of my chest and my eyes will melt, and I feel like I don't even want to breathe anymore.

I'm sorry to hear btd. It's very hard living with parents and others who do not respect your emotional boundaries. How did your dad push you over the edge?

Keep breathing.

I was playing with my guitar and then my dad told me that he bets he can take it out of my hand in 5 seconds. He is a bit rough, I know, and it's not something anybody minds because all people (at least the ones I know) think that it's a funny joke. I tell him I don't want to do this, but he does it anyway. I leave the guitar to him and tell him that I did not like this joke and that I have told them many times that it makes me sad and it hurts me. So instead of (at least) showing some sign of apology or even giving me my guitar back, he says I'm a child to act so sensitively and that I'm too sensitive. That's when I left them alone and went away from them.
Too sensitive?? Bullshit. There is no such f$@&ing thing as too sensitive. I am MORE sensitive, not too sensitive. And I don't care whether or not I am too sensitive, or whether my parents are allegedly doing this to 'toughen me up' (they actually said that to me on more than one occasion). Don't you care that you are removing the only safe haven left for your son to truly be himself? (i am shy as hell, my sensitivity made me have social anxiety, and i don't have a single friend, and home is the only place where i get to open up, be myself, and feel that someone really loves me in this cold world)

And I will keep on breathing, Nova. I appreciate your concern for me, ectoplasm and nova, and I'm sorry to have ruined your day with my stupid venting.

Unfortunately you just can't pick who your family is...I have a lot of issues with my family but nothing I haven't been able to deal with over the years. Some people, family or not, just don't have the ability to be sensitive to things they don't understand. There is nothing wrong with you, quite the contrary. You will grow up with a greater understanding for not only the people who treat you this way, but for the sensitives like yourself. The fact that you found this forum and took the initiative to be social means you did more than a lot of misunderstood people out there. All you can really do is pity your family for being so closed minded and numb to your issues. Sorry to hear about what you've been going through, but with a strong will and objectivity you can rise above the environment and really learn from it.

Originally Posted by boredToDeath

I was playing with my guitar and then my dad told me that he bets he can take it out of my hand in 5 seconds. He is a bit rough, I know, and it's not something anybody minds because all people (at least the ones I know) think that it's a funny joke. I tell him I don't want to do this, but he does it anyway. I leave the guitar to him and tell him that I did not like this joke and that I have told them many times that it makes me sad and it hurts me. So instead of (at least) showing some sign of apology or even giving me my guitar back, he says I'm a child to act so sensitively and that I'm too sensitive. That's when I left them alone and went away from them.
Too sensitive?? Bullshit. There is no such f$@&ing thing as too sensitive. I am MORE sensitive, not too sensitive. And I don't care whether or not I am too sensitive, or whether my parents are allegedly doing this to 'toughen me up' (they actually said that to me on more than one occasion). Don't you care that you are removing the only safe haven left for your son to truly be himself? (i am shy as hell, my sensitivity made me have social anxiety, and i don't have a single friend, and home is the only place where i get to open up, be myself, and feel that someone really loves me in this cold world)

And I will keep on breathing, Nova. I appreciate your concern for me, ectoplasm and nova, and I'm sorry to have ruined your day with my stupid venting.

Don't worry about me, my day isn't ruined

I can really empathise with having something taken off you that means a lot to you. People will never understand that, because it has special meaning to you. I learned that with my parents too. They will assume you're over reacting, because they just don't understand the full consequences of their actions on you and the thing that means a lot to you.

I understand that you're feeling abandoned, unloved and invalidated. You're parents probably think they are behaving in this way to 'help you'. Have they ever read anything on highly sensitive people? or social anxiety? they may actually come to respect you if they know that who you are doesn't and shouldn't be punished and that it is not abnormal, and beating it out of you wont help.

How to Deal With Emotional Abuse from Your Parents (for Adolescents) - wikiHow

You may even want to show your parents this. Do they know how much they hurt you? or do they understand that invalidation is emotional abuse?

Originally Posted by ams

Unfortunately you just can't pick who your family is...I have a lot of issues with my family but nothing I haven't been able to deal with over the years. Some people, family or not, just don't have the ability to be sensitive to things they don't understand. There is nothing wrong with you, quite the contrary. You will grow up with a greater understanding for not only the people who treat you this way, but for the sensitives like yourself. The fact that you found this forum and took the initiative to be social means you did more than a lot of misunderstood people out there. All you can really do is pity your family for being so closed minded and numb to your issues. Sorry to hear about what you've been going through, but with a strong will and objectivity you can rise above the environment and really learn from it.

Here here!