I recently came back from a funeral that had a profound effect on me. My cousin (who was raised as my sister) lost her 15 year old son to suicide. The boy was definitely an INTX and was also diagnosed with high-functioning autism (the savant kind). Not only do I have memories of babysitting him (changing diapers, laying down with him so he will nap, reading, coloring pictures) my son has been diagnosed with the same type of autism.
Funerals do not normally affect me, I am generally stoic publicly, but this trip I was a mess and even now I am still thrown. I just can't make sense of it.
So my question is, for those who wish to share, have you ever considered suicide? Why? What kept you from doing it? Did anyone you know/love take their own life? Did they leave some sort of clue as to why?