agnostic atheist. agnostic to the extent that non existence is not provable. atheist to the extent that the undeniable overwhelming evidential probability is that god/s do not exist. unable to suspend my disbelief or suffer from cognitive dissonance.
also happy to accept that this is our one chance at living and what a tiny percentage chance we had to live and be given the chance in the first place. enough to pull your mental socks up.