I'm obsessively detailed and things but I've always had a hard time in school and I guess life in general because I seem to always make mistakes, get confused, lost easily, etc. Basically I guess I'm slow (though it's not always obvious to someone who doesn't know me) but also impatient at times and inattentive. It's kind of a jumble. I'm usually running late unless I plan on arriving like 2 hours early in which case I might get there "on time" (but I'm still behind my planned schedule). I'm very logical like most any ISTJ but I always screw up and get lost and can't seem to be effective at anything without spending 100x the time someone else does and utilizing all the resources I can. I have a strong desire to be the best when there is something I want to do but often times average to slightly above average can take a monumental effort and with the world constantly changing, just getting through and learning such and such won't likely lead me much of anywhere, unless I'm able to comprehend things as well or better than the average person. I've also never been one to read a lot of books really...but I guess if there's something I NEED to find out about I'll often obsessively research it a little via the inernet. I also have been diagnosed with ADD, OCD and Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) but I seem to be treatment resistant, so I'm trying to cope.
Anyway, do any other ISTJs struggle like this? Always trying to be that expert your ISTJ personality desires but just getting lost all the time and not "getting it" without banging your head against the wall several times? How does one manage??