Hi, I'm new with the personality types. I've known about the theory for a while, but only just started to read more.
I think I'm an ISFP. I wasn't intending to post anything until I noticed the lack of an isfp community online. I find this kind of funny and comforting in a way.
I'll tell you a little about myself. I'm a young 20 something. I wouldn't consider myself 'artistic' like the type's title suggests. At least, I possess little skill. I'm sure that has quite a bit to do with I'm not persistent enough to work on a hobby like that. I am content scribbling on paper just to watch colors interact or playing simple melodies on a keyboard or my clarinet just to hear the sounds.
I was extremely shy growing up. This was unusual as I come from a very large and very close family. While the kids were playing and the adults were talking at family gatherings, I'd be off entertaining myself somewhere. Too many people became overwhelming, a thought that is very difficult for a young child to express. My mother in particular was not very understanding and was not very tolerant of such antisocial behavior. I had trouble with the kids at school. They were not very approachable, nor were they likely to go out of their way to meet someone new. I moved in the 4th grade to a faux-rich southern town that can be described as "We don't take kindly to yer kind 'round here" I had trouble making friends, and held closely to the ones i had.
It's not that I dislike people. I just don't understand people. I feel like I live in a bubble and there is a key something I am missing to interact like they do. I am a very deep and loving person, I just don't understand what to do to prove that to someone. I get mistaken for being critical, cynical, or generally a downer because I'm more likely to say what I feel than white lies. Honesty is a more personal complement in my eyes. I can form very deep connections with people. Sometimes I feel it's deeper on my side, partially because I don't ever let someone know all of me. My private inner world is important to me.
I'm getting better. Once I got out of the school environment, I felt relieved. Too much stimulus overwhelms me easily. I was able to overcome my shyness for some social skills. I feel like a mirror. I can reflect people's personalities to give the illusion I'm there. I feel disconnected from other people. I don't know if this is normal to feel this way. I can absorb mannerisms and idiosyncrasies of the people I'm around. The more people, the harder this is to do and the more inward I'll focus. I feel like years of people watching (my favorite sport) has led me to be able to pull the strings and swing any situation into my favor. I just mimic what I see, which relieves the awkwardness that I'm used to. Well, I'm okay with silence. Generally if I like a person, I'd be happy as anything sitting silently in a room with them as I would talking or doing anything else. I feel that it's awkward from the other person's point of view.
I guess I can come off as narcissistic. I live for me, and I'm okay with that. My goal in life is to be self sufficient as much as possible and spiritually content. I do care about people, but I don't know how to form lasting relationships. I feel once a relationship is established it's there. I don't think about what I need to do to keep it. I feel bad about that, but it just doesn't come to mind. That leads people to be pushed away. As a result I tend to feel like I'm this vague entity that floats in and out of people's lives briefly only to be a fleeting memory years down the line. I can only hope that meeting influenced them positively.
Anyway, I really don't know where this is going. I suppose I just wanted to find someone to connect to. The people I meet in my daily life seem to take in the world so differently than I do. Personality is also not an interesting subject to my friends in real life. They just tell me I think about it too much. Maybe I do. It's still always nice to find like-minded people.