 ISFP from Singapore. / Acknowledging the Artist in Me Opens a New World
Hi,
I'm ISFP.
I can't exactly say I'm proud ot be ISFP, but then discovering that I'm ISFP has given me insights into why I'm struggling in this world and made me understand what I really want in life.
Struggling with being ISFP... because I find it hard to survive in this world of where results are everything.
Results in career, results in status, results in the form of educational qualitifications. In a society (my country) where intellect is valued, and arts are scoffed.
When I first took MBTI test 3 years ago, it says i am an "Composer/Artist". I didn't believe it. Because all my life, I was trained in intellect. I excelled in mathematics and science. I read philosophy, theology etc. I never believed i was talented in music, even though I play 3 instruments (piano, guitar and organ). I dismissed music because I didnt think music amounted to anything useful, and also becuase i blamed myself for giving up piano after being traumatised by my piano teacher as a kid.
Then as I struggled and felt unhappy in my career. It dawned on me why I was so unhappy. Because I am ISFP!!!! I am not results oriented and I am laid back person, and in the fast paced corporate world, results and efficiency are everything.
2 months ago, I went back to read MBTI again carefully, again and again until I can almost memorise the profile word for word. I reexamined my interest in music, which I lay buried for a long time. I realised that I never acknowledged the musical talent in me.
I decided to explore music again.... I took courage to face my painful memories and played my piano again. I also discover that my emotional maturity have deepened the way I play music, such that I can see the possibility of composing music. Also, I received 2 invitations to play guitar at a wedding, and at a casual mini concert.
And right after the performances, 4 persons approached me asking me to teach them guitar! Feels like a whole new world opened up for me. This saturday will be my first teaching lesson!!!!
My exploring in music have caused me to take up belly dancing. I love dancing because I am able to connect with music with my whole body. I feel beautiful and sexy when I dance. I am going to perform for the student showcase in March !!!
With music, now I feel that I've found missing piece of myself. I open my heart to the possibility that perhaps, I will have a career in music one day. | 
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