Does any of you, INTP's, have had the sad experience of dealing with the death of a beloved parent? Or does any of you would have a link to an article/study covering the topic, specifically for NT's?
To describe my situation shortly: my mum was taken in a palliative unit 15 months ago. I managed to get her out, by giving her a lot of love, patience and make her see futur possibilities in life. She lived with us for over 6 months. I live abroad and as she missed her mother language, some family members and wanted to do some more rehab so she went to a elderly people's home in her native country, 3 months ago. She should come back to out place in 2 weeks, but has been taken again to a palliative unit. And this time it is final.
It bothers me that I do have mixed feelings. On the one hand I will lose a person I love dearly and with whom I shared many great moments in the past and I feel great and deep emotional pain concerning her death at hand. On the other hand dealing daily with my mum generally and dealing with the care taking specifically drains me. Me, having ADD doesn't help ofcourse. The latter gives me feelings of relief that she will go.
Any advice from first hand or studies would be greatly appreciated.