Pretty much all my life, I've always had this feeling like I'm waiting for something to happen before I do anything. It's got in the way of me doing important things, speaking to people, and almost everything else. It's like when you're at a social event and you always want the people to speak to you first, rather than you approaching them.
But this is too specific. What I'm talking about is a vague feeling that I'm always waiting for something big in my life to happen before I do anything big that I need to do. It's not that I can't do anything, I could very easily, but this "thing" I'm waiting for never happens. Ever.
I understand that this is nothing new, you've probably all thought this before and talked about it too. It's not like it's procrastinating, well it is, but usually when you procrastinate you're only putting it off. It always seems that there's a reason why I'm putting things off, but I have no idea what it is. It's the same sense I get when I'm waiting for the perfect moment to do something, but as we all know and realize at some point, there is no such thing as "the perfect moment".
Why am I like this, is anyone else like this and how do I make it go away?
*sigh* Pointless thread is pointless?