[SA1988]

I am seriously starting to think I was just meant to be alone. The odd occasion when I actually do meet someone, I either fuck it up and or they don't see me that way.

The mere fact that I cannot even achieve something as simple as a relationship with someone makes me feel as if I am a failure as a man.

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On a serious note, don't dwell over the need to 'achieve' a relationship. Most relationships are more like loveless, insecure partnerships, I reckon.

People who 'play the game' or enjoy 'the chase' are idiots with pre-historic primal instincts who just want a bit of momentary excitement and don't care at all for things in the long run. Hence the amount of clearly bored and complacent couples everywhere.

Enjoy your single life and, I reckon, don't chase love because you won't find it that way at all. I reckon, on average, the people who search for love spend as much time without love as the people who don't search for love. So you might as well stop pining over it so much and wait for it to happen naturally!

Oh and some advice I gave my friend was to escape, travel, go somewhere completely new for a long period of time, give yourself a chance to be yourself, and things will probably improve from there. I think that worked for me. I'm lucky enough to have met the most amazing girl in the world, but it was only through leaving the country that I found her. If I had stayed in my home-town, I would still be the same masked version of myself that I had created to fit in with the people and places of my closed existence. So I was generally a false/partial character (which I reckon is true of most INTPs/anybody living in the same place they always have), and so if I had met her then, she wouldn't have liked me at all, because my life was a lie. I don't know if that would apply to you or not, but leaving home definitely, definitely let me be myself.

[Tanuchiro]

My nephew is moving today. I'm not sure how I feel.
He's lived with us almost all 8 of his years.
My sister moved to Georgia and left him here to finish the school year, then he stayed even longer. It pisses me off that everyone always goes way out of their way to make things easy for her. Sometimes she even goes off and gets angry at people for no reason. I never understood how she could get mad and cut someone off one moment, then shamelessly ask them for something when she needed it. And they'd do it.
Anyway, he just left and I'm confused. He's annoying as hell, especially this last year and even more this summer. Still, the entire time he was with us, he'd get spoiled and not get held accountable for anything he did. "Getting in trouble" for him was someone simply stating that he'd done something wrong. Nothing else. When I was really little I remember getting hit sometimes when I acted up, then she started time-outs and "taking privileges" (like, no TV) after I got a little older. I had to turn off lights when I left the room, eat whatever people cooked, go to bed at a certain time, etc. He didn't. Everyone gave him free reign. He'd be disrespectful and ask for something at the same time, and get it. It pissed me off. Still, it's more the guardians' faults than his. Living with almost no rules would make for some issues.
Anyway, I couldn't deal with him for these past few months. He'd do some foul shit that kids would normally get in trouble for, and I couldn't even say anything because the "adults" would just go against whatever I said. Even when he was even younger, if I put him in time out, they would tell him to get up. right in front of me, no matter what he did.
I couldn't wait for him to leave, really. I wanted him gone. But, this morning, it stared feeling kind of weird. (I guess) I don't hate him, but I can't stand him. Still, I'm used to him constantly being around to bug me. Plus, I won't see him grow up like I'm used to. I remember seeing him for the first time. A fat, little baby, with a look that seemed like he was getting tired of the doctor's examining him. An annoyed, but calm baby.
It sucks because I was there as he learned so much, then started seemingly unlearning. Lately, he's been just doing whatever and not even worrying. If he sees a dead bug, he'll come tell someone to move it. If he spills food all over the floor, he'll just walk away like nothing happened and if you just say something about it, he get's upset.
Anyway, I'm not quite sure what to think about this situation. I told him he could call me, though, and I might Skype sometimes.

Also, on a possibly unrelated note, this morning, while trying to sleep, I started thinking about people. People I fell out of touch with and people who I'm worried about. It was really uncomfortable, because I couldn't stop thinking about it. It was like a wave of worry and regret just hit me all at once. I'm better now, but that was odd.

Is this that (underdeveloped?) Fe at work?

[BeBe]

Yesterday was one of those days during which I felt suffocated. I was anxious, irritated, excited and numb all at the same time. I had too much going on in my head to function properly and ended up leaving work early. I also think I may actually have feelings for someone...not good. I spend half my time analyzing my feelings and trying to determine if they're real or imagined and the other half frustrated because I'm making no sense. It sucks. I've managed to get it under control now so all that's left to to imagine away those 'feelings' and pretend they were never there. It's better than not being able to function. :/

[LeoP]

I have found it is very helpful to bring in another person who is qualified to deal with an upset person. Watch and learn and the next time try to emulate their actions and words. With enough experience and practice your skills will improve and you will not feel nearly as helpless.

[SA1988]

I deleted my facebook account a few weeks ago but the time I saved by deleting it is now wasted on this website instead.

The only benefit is that the people here are generally more interesting and I'm anonymous.

[Neuroticon]

I deleted my facebook account a few weeks ago but the time I saved by deleting it is now wasted on this website instead.

The only benefit is that the people here are generally more interesting and I'm anonymous.

Well here you might actually learn something.

[theorycraft]

im a regular at spankwire and tubegalore

[Fate]

I had to change my type to ESFJ for something. :(

[Ablysmal]

I'm feeling a strange combination of lightheartedness and melancholy, and I admit that I actually like it. I know it's cliche, but I've never felt more alive, and it's because of this flood of emotions whirling within me. I don't understand this effect, but I don't really care.

[lastman]

I have not really heard much from my "best" friend in quite awhile. Don't really even text me back, and when he does is pretty much:

Me: hi
Him: hi
Me: whats up
Him: Nothing

Me: anything new? (he just had his second kid)
Him: No

And every so often a picture of the new little rug rat comes in that I don't really even look at.

I think I am to the point that I don't even give a shit?