I don't know if this will be a touchy subject. I'm to curious, what was your childhood?
My childhood was bad, I lived back in forth with different unstable E personality type parents.
I'm coped with alot of it with staying away isolated trying to keep my mind peacful.
My dad is a abusive pri*k. Moms a weak self pity show who uses drugs whenever she feels like there is nothing better to do
Anyways despite everything, I'm happy with my life. I'm very resisting no matter how messed up things get I always get back up.