[R2-D2]

i feel very off kilter these days, and i'm not sure why... i find myself alternating between misanthropic anger and nihilistic ennui... i also increasingly prefer the online world to the (so-called) real world, and it sort of bothers me, although i tell myself that it shouldn't. is it just me, or do any of you guys ever feel this way?

or, more simply, do you ever just feel........BLEGGGHH?

[Skewed]

Every single day.

[Radzell]

I feel the more i learn the more i step out of the "real world". I can't stop learning i can tell i am alienating myself but i can't seem to stop. I know exactly how you feel. Its not so much as i am socially awkward as most INTX seem to its just the more i learn the less incline i am to want to talk about things most people find interesting.

[Stolen]

It'd liken it to a constant state of feeling stoned, without drugs.

When I get mentally involved with something (writing, reading, problem solving, overthinking) I'll spend hours existing in a plane outside the physical. Then when there is an interruption or loud noise, it startles the crap out of me. Like at the computer, I'll totally forget my body is folded underneath me. Seven hours later - holy shit! I have a physical body. How weird.

The physical feels very surreal to me. Very. Its just so much harder to comprehend and believe in than the mental plane.

[teabiscits]

i feel like this too. everyone around me wants to talk about what they had for lunch last tuesday and i want to talk politics and high folutent stuff like how i think carl jung is going to change the world. why am i the only one who is excited about this? why?

[Nitou]

Perfect normal.. IN-ness? Everybody has their bleh moods and I would guess that the character of the moods varies by type. IN's seem to identify with and intellectualize their dark moods more, maybe because we're in our heads thinking and feeling and immersing ourselves in the darkness. It can become like a feedback loop with a negative thoughts and feelings feeding each other and getting bigger and bigger until it is overwhelming. But as I said, I think much of this is normal IN-ness, in fact some study has found that chronic mild depression makes for a more realistic outlook. But if it gets out of hand it can create psychological and functional impairment. If I feel badly I try to remember that the dark moods are not an accurate reflection of reality and that they are only passing.

[Molock]

Yes. Although sometimes I wonder if it's not my attitude towards others that keeps them at bay. I am not mean or anything, in fact I'd consider myself friendly, but I can seem (and usually am...) completely uninterested in what most people talk about. I like to direct conversations towards something interesting. I might cut them off and say something along the line of "did you know that -insert interesting fact-". This leads me to feel alienated by people.

I am also unable to understand many of the values of modern society. I find society very narrow-minded and somewhat stupid. There are so many things that could be improved upon but we waste time watching American idol or some other stupid show. In my opinion people settle for shit and can't see how much better things could be. This is definitely a major point that angers me. I have a vision of a better world and I've mostly worked out what changes need to be made.

It doesn't really affect my mood though. If I am depressed about something I usually bounce back into an optimistic mood rapidly. For example, yesterday I was annoyed and very angry about something but after thinking about it for a while (whilst in bed) I started laughing and suddenly felt extremely euphoric.

[Myer]

Every single day, somedays I feel the same way about the online world as well as the real world. BLAGGHH is a nice way to put it, I often feel frustrated about everything, or nothing.

[Windette]

Absolutely. I am never fully aware of my physical surroundings unless I make the conscious effort to. I like to make the effort sometimes because it makes me feel different.

I agree with Nitou, I think it would mostly be an IN thing.

[eso]

i did a lot before i started to try and develop my weaknesses. a month ago i was in a state where i would often go a week without leaving the house very often. now i make sure to do some errand to benefit my life or go hang out with a friend 1 or more times a day. i broke the habits of porn n videogames and i feel a lot better and nearly as motivated as my estp mother.