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This is a discussion on The (stream of conscious?) venting thread for INTJ. within the INTJ Forum - The Scientists forums, part of the NT's Temperament Forum- The Intellects category; Originally Posted by Abraxas The easiest way to win an argument with anyone is to make it look like you ...
This thread is good. It made me think about my own maturity, and how the fact that I'm not a very silly person or very outgoing doesn't make me a lot of friends. For some reason I thought I had to become one of those people. That's completely wrong. I'd rather have the mature role anyhow, and just be friendly and helpful when I can. It might make me seem aloof, or arrogant, or unfriendly, or cold on first meeting, but to devalue myself by reducing my maturity levels just to fit in, to make other people feel more comfortable with their own immaturity... wow it sounds stupid writing it out.
Mom: Alcatraz is on Demand, but not the episode that we missed.
(NASCAR took the spot of Alcatraz, so Alcatraz didn't show last week)
Mom: I think what they're gonna do is show the episode that we missed next week, so we really didn't miss it.
Me: That's what I said.
Mom: When did you say that?
Me: Last night.
Mom: I didn't hear you say anything about On Demand last night.
Me: I know. But I DID say that usually if they give the time spot to another show, they show the episode on the NEXT week. So we didn't miss it.
Mom: BUT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ON DEMAND!
SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT IS GOING ON IN HER HEAD. Please. Because I really don't understand it and I imagine it's just some sort of incessant buzzing noise, blocking out her thought processes.
This girl obviously likes me and keeps doing things to get me to ask her out, as well as other people trying to get me to. D: I haven't even analyzed her enough to KNOW how i feel! DDDDD:
Thankfully situations have caused me to tell her that I wasn't looking for relationships. Though indirect, at least it gave me a ton of breathing room. Now I'm not freaked out anymore
I sometimes feel like i truly hate my mom and that I may never genuinely like her as a person, and I literary have fantasies of suffocating her with a plastic bag and possibly raping her or selling her on the black market as a slave/toy for some other sadistic freak. I honestly sometimes wish instead of a baby being born that i was some parasitic disease that killed her because she is just some useless clod anyway that has nothing beneficial to offer other than being a sex object for dope fiending bastards that would end up killing her anyway once they become bored of her or frustrated with her low intelligence and lack of common sense. I hate it that I feel this way and I hate it that I think of her this way but i just feel so much rage its ridiculous.
What I meant was that I also have the ability to be really stupid and silly at times. I've found that because I laugh at myself a lot, it seems to make me appear a little less intimidating/cold to at least some people.