Something I've spent a decade putting together and taking apart.
I'm a scientist. The Big Bang Theory, to me, is the idea that makes the most sense to me when I am feeling existential. Billions of years ago, the Universe burgeoned and created us from nothing; and from that explosion of nothing, we now have everything.
You and I, and trees--stars and planets--all came from this event; but even the air we breathe, the atoms that compose us, and the fabric of space came from this Big Bang. Now, if you can believe this, then the idea that we are separate from one another becomes more seemingly improbable.
And I don't just mean from one human to another--I mean, even space,empty space--is as much connected to my skin as it is connected to yours or a distant star. So, as ludicrous as it may sound, distance is an illusory perception we've developed. I think that's why, in part, we feel alone when I think we shouldn't. Kind of romantic for an INTJ, huh?
That's my idea of birth. For me, that just wasn't enough. If there's birth, then there's death. Now. I don't believe in the ecclesiastical God; Hinduism and Islam are, too, inadequate in explaining how things are. We pray, and tell God what to do--as if he didn't know. We speak to God, when we should be silent. To pray is to not know, I think.
In the Bible, God himself says, "You search the scriptures daily, for in them you think you have life." You can read the Bible front to back, but that never brings you closer to God. Because words are inept; even the best combinations of words can prove inadequate when matched with pure experience.
To me, Isaac Newton's Conservation of Energy made the most sense when I was thinking about death and the end of the physical mortal existence.
When we die, the Earth decays, and the stars all disappear--this energy,heat--will just flow towards wherever it needs to. And I mean, all of our energies will end up in the same place one day. Like how we all originated from the Big Bang. So, my idea that distance is illusory and that we are all connected made sense to me. 19th century hippies popularised the ideas that would boast "we are all connected" from modern 19th century idealists, but they never really told you why. They never made it tangible.
So there it is, from what I understand of it: Life and Death.
I was still pretty unsatisfied, I wanted to understand God himself. A few years ago I was a resident at a Buddhist temple in Kyoto. I stayed there for six months to contemplate. The tantric guru, Gauatama Siddhartha once said, "We suffer because we desire, and so, to end our suffering we must, too, end our desires."
It made me realise that much of what we understand about the Universe works as a paradox. With black there is white, with good there is evil. With soft, there is hard; If the Big Bang and the Universe represents everything then the thing that created everything is nothing.
It's difficult to accept this for a lot of people, because it just doesn't make a lot of sense. Like, only reading the Bible doesn't make a lot of sense. You have to experience it. And so, I tried my best to. As I said, words are inept, but I hope these ideas will be able to help some people. If there's something I'm missing, please reply. I would be happy to change my perspective.