Right now i feel really stuck.I'm still getting over a very on and off relationship which was going on this year, and giving me quite a bit of pain.Im currently on Citalopram 20mg, purely to keep my emotions balance so i dont dip int a depression, but, the problem is, there taking away alot of my energy to do thing.Im sleeping alot and dont feel like i have the energy to do a full time job which i know is what i need if i want to move forward (and i do)
I hate hate this situation, i wish i had the energy to do what i want to do
Im currently trying to pursue sucess within music aswell as trying to hold down a job.I have been a DJ since i was 17, now 25, doing atleast a few gigs a year and practicing alot of having fun, but wanting to do it as a sort of career and travel the world.The problem was is that i wasnt willing to do what needed to be done to make it in the DJ world(Dog eat Dog sort of thing) and my social skills at the time were even worse than they are now.So i decided to try and make my own music, but with my standards to high, im only just getting to a place were im happy with my productions and having something i would play out.
So im stuck, i carnt come off the anti ds because ill go into a sort of depression, and staying on them means ill be standing still, but atleast i can still work on get on with life
Any advice on this would be helpful