[whoawhere]

I think it's a good start that you're writing what you think and feel about things. I'd suggest continuing that, whether it's with posts in this forum, a journal, a blog, whatever you want to do. I've found that for me, doing that regularly has helped to make me a lot more aware of what's going on in my life. And when I'm more aware, I'm in a better position to take action and make changes I need to. Maybe it would work for you too.

[thomas92]

Well..i read everything you guys wrote. I could make up excuses again, but i won't. I'm gonna do something. This really can't go on anymore this way. I'm gonna get a job and leave school. I can learn this subject by myself anyways.
It still seems pretty scary though, but i have no idea what i fear about it. It's just there. Though it doesn't really matter, i'm gonna do it anyways.
So thanks to all of you:)

[summer solstice]

I'm gonna get a job and leave school. [...]
It still seems pretty scary though, but i have no idea what i fear about it. It's just there. Though it doesn't really matter, i'm gonna do it anyways.

Everyone can fear the unknown, perhaps everybody does. So have a plan, and perhaps a back up plan. Good luck, and don't worry too much about 'failing' or not finding your purpose. You're young enough to take your time with it. ^^

[thomas92]

Wow..It's pretty weird. I almost feel like i'm happy. o.O Haven't had this feeling for while..

I haven't found a job yet. I just started searching actually. I haven't been to school for 3 weeks, and thing are starting to come back. The things i wanted to do in the first place. Go to Iceland, go to Ireland, go to Germany, go to Japan. Taking photos, make music, maybe learn psychology, learn languages. It was so hopeless, but now it feels somewhat achiveable:). Well, at least it feels like it, we'll see what will work out. I have to work on this laziness:).

I should've taken action earlier though..there were pretty obvious signs that it wasn't for me. While i was going to school, i broke my arm for the first time, got sick several times(I never get sick), screwed things up with 3 girls, got acid reflux and hardly could handle any contact with another human being. So i guess the conclusion is, if something feels wrong, and you're not obliged to do it, just don't.

[Master Wolf]

I think your title says a lot.

You seem to be having trouble finding "purpose and love" in your current groups and activities.

I wonder how people come up with the perceptions that make them feel..