Maybe you can bring it back down to basics...
Somebody else posted this thread here on this forum and it gave me a lot of perspectives too.
Sometimes we fall down so often, but we should or need to get back up again. For me, I think my basic needs are almost fulfilled, except for the partner side, which is probably what gave me that ad hoc anxiety from time to time... I felt the belonging and the friends and family for support for a while, and I felt so settled.. but now I seek more... and I am indeed unbalanced is because I need to build up the triangle again.
Safety needs and physiological needs are what someone said to me in conversation that, whenever you are in a dilemma, you should definitely try to remember the things that you used to love.... When we experienced fear, or stress, we naturally found a way to anchor ourselves. So remember those kind of anchors. For me, it was music, and it was dance. I never knew that it anchored me all these years, but now... I know my basic needs are threatened too. i.e. financial security and also my self respect in this industry.
If you wanted to pursue a career in music, then you should fight that fear and indeed find surround yourself with like-minded people who are in the industry.... I wish I did surrounded myself with xNFx career and people, but I went into IT and surrounded myself with xNTx type people instead. I find myself losing my own momentum sometimes.
Remember, you once said that, you had a gf, and a flat and was earning great money but then you turned to something spiritual.. i.e. music... Look at that chart again and this time, make conscious decision on building it up in a way which you like, and don' waste time procastinating ! Just go and do what you find fun etc.
I came to the realisation that, everybody falls down often.. losing jobs, friends or family etc. But through time, friends come back, family forgives you, and job market picks up again.... That is the cycle of life.
(Btw, I have been jobless 3 times now, and I have made conscious decision to take career breaks each time round... I do not know why I do not feel scared but I let it go. )