Hi guys, there is an problem I am facing now which I really need to resolve asap, but I can't because I don't know the exact cause of it.
I used to have severe social anxiety, but I got much better over the years, although I realize now that it is mainly due to the way I structured my life so that I don't need to communicate much to strangers most of the time.
Recently I am starting out with my freelance career and I had to send out a lot of promo postcards. I sent out a batch yesterday and got a few really positive replies through email about my work, so I should feel really good about myself right? No, instead I started to have a mild anxiety attack and almost wanted to cry.
What is confounding to me is that I always thought my anxiety is due to the fear of negativity towards me. I don't understand why I have trouble dealing with any form of attention, even if it is positive attention. And it is just email for god's sake! It doesn't make any sense and I know it!
But I don't have time to moan and cry about this so I need to know the root cause so that I can solve this. I still have 450 promos to send so if I don't solve my insanity soon I think I might die from a heart attack.