im afraid of not being talented enough to create music that will pay my bills and stop me from working the nine to five that would kill my spirit and drive me back into the depression I just clawed my way out of this year
im afraid of living a regular life, living a normal life. the thought of conforming and settling makes me sick.
im afraid of the violence and hatred and mistrust and greed in the world
im afraid of socializing
im afraid to kiss
im afraid to have sex
im afraid to dance with a guy
im afraid of being judged even though I know now that I'm awesome.
Im afraid of the symptoms of social anxiety and depression and what they turn me into and how the make the world black and jittery and painful and strange
im scared of trusting anyone totally, even best friends
above all, im afraid of my own mind.
it is far scarier than anything in 'reality'