No shame thread: write something that scares you.

**Wellsy** · 03-19-2012 04:22 PM

That someday I may seriously contemplate suicide and I won't try and reach out for help.

That I won't learn to be very independent and will always be a drain on someone else in some way, that i'll use them as a crutch in everyday life being this resource sucking parasite.

That I may find a women who mutually loves me and I won't be man enough to treat her the way she deserves.

**GreenLadyBug** · 03-19-2012 05:03 PM

I'm afraid to be my true self around others.

I'm afraid of not living up to everyone's expectations.

I'm afraid of the day I will have to be completely independent. I'm not sure if I'll be able to handle it.

**Cmk** · 03-19-2012 05:03 PM

I am scared of ending up alone at some point in my life. Losing my friends and never find a partner.

I also fear not being loved. By my mother, by my friends and by those is my family I care for.

And a more stupid one.. I am scared of being fat, I starve myself most days to keep the fear away. But I can't live being fat.

This is three things that can make me cry at night and lose all hope.

**Chris6224** · 03-19-2012 05:09 PM

Originally Posted by Wanderlust94

Although I know the thought is caused by OCD, I still fear I may become a paedophile.

I fear I'm becoming a callous asshole

I hate myself for always having terrible thoughts and bringing up/joking about dark subject matter into normal conversation because I feel my mind won't let it rest unless I talk to someone about it or just so I can make some that's annoying me just leave me alone. I wish I could have a better filter like so many others do.

I too fear loneliness and that I'll never be able to hold a stable relationship with any woman.

I hate myself for constantly seeming to let my parents down, but at the same time it's not their life and I'm in constant clash with how things are supposed to be with them.

There's probably more I can't think of right now.

Also, I'll contribute another post to bump this thread if it gets too far behind. I know some don't like that, but I really enjoy the concept of this thread. Even though it's only an Internet forum, there's something empowering about this thread.

Fear of becoming a paedophile is probably a healthy thing. How many paedophiles can say the same?

**Chris6224** · 03-19-2012 05:11 PM

Originally Posted by GreenLadyBug

I'm afraid to be my true self around others.

I'm afraid of not living up to everyone's expectations.

I'm afraid of the day I will have to be completely independent. I'm not sure if I'll be able to handle it.

Really? I spent my childhood trying to be my 'true self' because every one said, when you go to school, to be yourself and people will like you.

**da_gobbo** · 03-19-2012 05:13 PM

Originally Posted by Chris6224

Really? I spent my childhood trying to be my 'true self' because every one said, when you go to school, to be yourself and people will like you.

hmm, didnt really work for me, however later on i've realised...

if you be yourself, you will like you, and thats far more important than everyone else liking you

**waitwhat...** · 03-19-2012 05:18 PM

I'm scared that someday I will break one of my promises to my loved ones....

That I will give into the voices in my head that tell me to give up (my life or my relationship with my husband).

That this will lead to either me going back to cutting myself, trying to commit suicide again, running away without telling anyone where I went, or cheating on my husband.

EDIT: Sorry to the arachniphobes on this thread.... I realize this is supposed to be a safe place to share fears, so I hope this doesn't discourrage anyone. :/ He's harmless, I promise!

**ComedianINFP** · 03-19-2012 05:24 PM

I actually get very frightened that something I've said to someone will be taken as something hateful and mean. I do a lot of over-explaining myself to make sure I'm not accidentally offending someone. Weird.

**pericles** · 03-19-2012 05:36 PM

That I will never be able to control my moods disorder. And that I'm only able to access my normal personnality for a few hours before I'm overwhelemd by my shadow again. That my efforts to fight that shit are futile.

**da_gobbo** · 03-19-2012 05:41 PM

Originally Posted by waitwhat...

EDIT: Sorry to the arachniphobes on this thread.... I realize this is supposed to be a safe place to share fears, so I hope this doesn't discourrage anyone. :/ He's harmless, I promise!

personally im fine with a photo on the net, sitting on my keyboard would be a problem, and id be typing this on my phone instead