[doublexuan]

When I was much younger, i always imagined myself living in an idyllic cottage with my own garden near the lake. Because it was all in my head, it was perfect. It was perfect because I am an INFP, I love peace and quiet, so by default I am supposed to be connected to nature right?

Some years down the road, I realized I really don't, and my reasons are probably strange:

- I hate stepping on grass. I hate soil. I hate the uncertainty that there might be worms crawling underneath me and the thought of it freaks me out. I mean, all insects, worms and anything related freaks me out. Yes, even butterflies. Yes, I am a pussy.

- Beaches scare me too. I don't hate the sea, but it is not something that is needed in my life. There are too many crabs moving at warp speed across the sand, and those creatures are EVERYWHERE with their mini pincers. They look like insects. Sometimes, worms fall from the tree onto the beach benches. When I am inside the sea, I feel strange objects against my skin (e.g. seaweed or worse still, poisonous jellyfish) and you cannot see from the surface what it is.



I have yet to meet anyone in real life that relates to me, and my friends think I am crazy when I scream at things such as a butterfly flying pass. Even when they stare at the pavement while walking beside me, I get really paranoid that there is a cockroach nearby and they are not telling me because they don't want me to embarrass them with my horrible screams.

Is this strange? Anyone else here who gets freaked out by nature too? Please don't be mean to me, I don't mean to degrade nature in any way!

[Blanco]

I love nature, but nature does not love me. I burn easily and have pollen allergies.

But I love laying on the grass, going out for walks, and starring at the ocean. It brings me a sense of peace.

[pumpkins]

I do love talking walks, and I like butterflies and animals in general, but no, I don't like nature that much either. Maybe it's because I've lived in big cities pretty much all my life, but I love the sound of cars outside when I lie in bed and can't sleep, I think we should definitely get rid of some meadows to build more proper transportation system.
I guess I'm just a city girl, that's all. But this is definitely one of my most un-INFP-y traits as well.

[Autumn Raven]

I actually wrote something a while back about my feelings regarding nature. I think I understand.

"The vast lands of the earth are ever alluring
Begging for an exploration
That I cannot adequately give,
For my body itself is a distraction which never fails to avert my attention far away from the deserving beauties residing among the grasses and trees and pollen and bees."

The message I intended to convey through this had to do with my undying love for the natural world, but my inability to enjoy and appreciate it due to discomfort. Nature, it seems, is better loved from a distance.
Thinking about the world brings me greater pleasure than being in the middle of it. In my mind, it is ideal.

[Taylor Fulton]

I'm the same way.

I was driving down a dirt road with an ex last summer, saw a forest preserve and said, "You think we could go through there one day?" I suspect he's an ESXJ. He's like, "Why not now?", and so we went. It SUCKED. It smelled like weeds everywhere, go figure, and bugs wouldn't get the fuck off of me. So, within minutes, we left and went on about our business.

Like the woman above me states in her poem, I feel like my body is what prohibits me from doing all of those exciting things I myself dream about. But think about it, and this is just a theory: If we did more and thought less, would we still have our same personality types? Please don't slap me for that. I'm sure there very well may be several INFPs who defy such "logic." It's just a question I'd like answered by said people.

[da_gobbo]

i like nature, some of it i like at a loooong distance though, some im happy with up close

[JoCZker]

I loooove nature. Theoretically. :)

I love the idea of nature, I love the idealisations about nature and life in nature in my head. . .

But true nature, i dont enjoy so much. I have allergies, i never know if i am smelling some great flower or sniffing hallucinogenicall mushroom . . . I dont know what tree is what . . . Yes, nature does scare me a little. :)

Its like with family. I love family values in my head, i love idea of big families living together, sharing theirs troubles and passing wisdom and so on . . .

But i just hate to spend time with my own family in one room. :))

Does it make sense? :)

[doublexuan]

I loooove nature. Theoretically. :)

I love the idea of nature, I love the idealisations about nature and life in nature in my head. . .

But true nature, i dont enjoy so much. I have allergies, i never know if i am smelling some great flower or sniffing hallucinogenicall mushroom . . . I dont know what tree is what . . . Yes, nature does scare me a little. :)

Its like with family. I love family values in my head, i love idea of big families living together, sharing theirs troubles and passing wisdom and so on . . .

But i just hate to spend time with my own family in one room. :))

Does it make sense? :)

Yes, you are making complete sense! At least to me :)

[doublexuan]

I actually wrote something a while back about my feelings regarding nature. I think I understand.

"The vast lands of the earth are ever alluring
Begging for an exploration
That I cannot adequately give,
For my body itself is a distraction which never fails to avert my attention far away from the deserving beauties residing among the grasses and trees and pollen and bees."

The message I intended to convey through this had to do with my undying love for the natural world, but my inability to enjoy and appreciate it due to discomfort. Nature, it seems, is better loved from a distance.
Thinking about the world brings me greater pleasure than being in the middle of it. In my mind, it is ideal.

Wow, it is so beautifully written and so true. Do you have somewhere where you post your writings?

[Blanco]

Also, i have this fascination of big open spaces. I love looking at the ocean (I live close to a bay... but close enough). And I really want to visit a desert some day.

I like the sublime feeling that it gives me.

It's weird but I like feeling small and insignificant. The universe is so interesting!