I'm useless in this "real world"....I'm such a f*cking impractical, too imaginative person...
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I'm useless in this "real world"....I'm such a f*cking impractical, too imaginative person...
The Venus Project
Some people are trying to make a difference. Let's progress towards a better tomorrow, instead of moping about today. The system is obviously wrong. Let's try to make it right!
I only cite the Venus Project as a good example. I think there could be better solutions. The point is to get people together to try to make changes that can make things better, instead of pointing out the flaws in solutions. At least change what doesn't work, into a better model, y'know what I'm sayin'?
Maybe this will make you feel better.
I know it might seem like these visions of the future are an enormous change-- but I think they're possible. It's only people thinking that improvement isn't possible that keeps us in stagnation.
Hey niki I hope your doing well. I just wanted to show some support to you and your current state of mind and tell you this is what we have to go through as we idealist grow older. I went through somewhat of the same feelings about a year ago.
I use to be a nice easy going guy until reality gave me a good beat down. I went from the most thoughtful person you could ever know to the most withdrawn and resentful person you could come across. What occurred was I came to realize that the people around me looked at me as an innocent fool and someone to step all over. What I thought was me being a good and caring person I found was just a laughing stock. I lost hope for anything I believed and felt like a good for nothing especially when some of the people I found scoffing were people I truly believed in. I found myself alone and lost. Without knowing where to turn I just began to retracted myself from everyone and everything. This didn't help the situation. I started going down a hole that today I'm still working on getting out of. I had the worst thoughts plaguing my mind and wouldn't let me rest. With my habit of doing research for entertainment I found out about SPD (Schizoid Personality Disorder) and I came to the conclusion that this is what I was becoming.
After going as low as I finally felt I'd let myself go I decided to do something. My mind going around 1000 miles/hr I began make changes. Little changes that helped my mind change gears. From working out, eating different, getting healthier taking supplements that I researched for different conditions. I found it exciting and helpful all the things that I could find for anxiety, depression, intruding thoughts and lots of other things all of which I could buy at the store or online. This was the beginning of what I call "ME". Now I'm still working on becoming a better me but I'm far from where I was before.
My suggestion to you is start looking inside for what your mind and body is asking for. Not what you want for the rest but what you really want for "YOU"! It's not going to come to you in a blink of an eye because as we are use to only thinking of others and not ourselves. It'll come slow and steady. You have to break many habits of caring for others before yourself but it's the only way you can become an effective person. You can't help anyone if you haven't helped yourself first. That was something that was difficult for me to except as I always wanted credit from others. I learned I had to be the one that loved myself and give me credit for who I am and what I stood for. No one is more important than yourself in the long run especially I feel when your an INFP with all your genuine caring and values. It's about that time Nik. I hope this helps you at all.
I found this link and that shows the phases INFPs go through in life and their process of growing. I found it quite interesting and true in my case. It might also help shed some light. http: // personality junkie. com/ the-infp/
Life is what we are dealt with... unfortunately.
I'm currently reading this site is getting some travel bug feeling again.... :)
Personal Growth/Spirituality | Chicky Bus
I ditto the comment made about your own world being "shaken" down. I used to see my extended family as my own family and gave it strong ties. But when that trust was broken, or rather, when my sister said to me that my extended family is NOT my real family, and that I should stop my emotional ties with them cos of her annoyance of me ignoring her. This broke me too. I felt disloyal, and yet, my own ESTJ mother would make me feel anxious and had always been with her very controlling ways. I am also certain that I displaced some emotions somewhere at some point too, but you know what, it does not matter, cos what happened next was almost like rebelling against bad karmas. I went to seek the whole idea of "love", what is love, and what is true love. Everywhere I go, I seek and ask people what they mean as loving or love. I see motherly love in people, and care and concern. In a way, I went on my own "truth seeking" journey. Did my mother love me? Truly? Well, it is from experiencing this anthropology trip that allowed me to get a sense that my mother did love me, in her own way, the best that she could. It's under those kind of understanding that I eventually let go of her abandonment action of yester years. What I gained though in travelling, and in talking to people, is psychology, people, understanding.
Everybody sometimes find that fighting anger, or way, and reset the karma in a way. I mean, we all do it sometimes. Maybe for one reason or another, you came to your own sense that your idealistic way is indeed something that you want to pursue.... so maybe now is an opportunity ? Cos if anything, you need to question your own ideology and if you can actually work against that. It's funny, but you got to let the ESTJ trigger to come through for you, and fight. You just have to. I hope that you will let it come forward, cos sometimes it is needed to help you make that first challenging step.
Let yourself be free, and be adventurous and try... Take some trips out somewhere and explore the music, or visit music festivals, anything that really touches your heart's desire. It will make you feel so alive. :)
Your problem isn't other people, although they certainly are A problem in the bigger picture of life on earth. But your problem is finding your place, your path amidst all of this hellish chaos. This focus on others is all just a distraction from the real problem, the one person you can change. Its easy to blame others, but what have you changed about Niki? You are still doing everything the same as always, working and living in an unsatisfying place and way, never changing anything and never being happy with where you are at. You are looking for someone else to blame, to distract you from the difficulties facing you. I don't mean to seem harsh, I sympathize with your perceptions and have felt all of them myself many times, and have been in your shoes. But I know I can't do anything about them. I can only be me, and I can only change myself and my actions, and bite off small manageable pieces of the world that I can change. And I can't blame the world for all my failures even though I want to, that's too easy.
Beautiful people should make beautiful things, rather than being paralyzed by the non-beautiful things they may encounter in life. Let's make the world even more beautiful than it is, by living a highly motivated and inspiring life. Life is a beautiful jorney, and definitely not a dark affair for me, and I hope it will be similar for everybody else, 'cause all of you deserve to live happily. :)
Last edited by IcarusDreams; 05-27-2012 at 07:12 PM. Reason: Lots of typos-don't have the time to correct them all.
You know, when I think about everything that is wrong in the world, I can't help but hope that, if we manage not to kill ourselves first, humanity will one day evolve past such condition and finally achieve harmony among ourselves and with nature. Even if it's a process for thousands of years.
I feel very naive to think like that, but... can anyone accurately tell what the future may bring, anyway?
I honestly believe we're living in a convoluted changing point ... and even though we're still repeating mistake after mistake, I do believe in human capacity of learning. After all more than ever old values, the status quo... are being questioned... so, something good must come out of it?
Human may sometimes want to have more power and dominant than the commoner but there are still human which are pure like child who doesnt know anything "dirty" humanity yet. I find there are still hope in humanity
I understand your situation and feel you are not a blind human like others seeing only rosy things in name of development where destruction of planet taking place. You can find solutions and people to like but what change it gonna make ? Changing yourself wont help as problem is with Human race. They are killing our planet for foolish reason. The food you eating is a sacrifice of a creature.
People will ask you to look at good areas but it wont change the fact that worse is happening every second. Facts are facts and just because there is new Iphone or men discovered Higgs particle it doesnt mean world isnt cruel anymore.
Niki if you still feel the same then PM me. Because I do and will be.