I'm afraid of not being good enough, not measuring up, not having what it takes ect. and also of being called out as a fake.
I allways feel that whatever I do, there's alwlays someone better, more dedicated, more agressive, more determined, someone with more heart. And if I lose heart ..all I have is my heart. My heart and my balls. I fight through it every day, between feelings of confidence and doubt. And it is so exhausting, so isolating at times.
I guess the best and only way to get through it is to pursue relentlessly towards my dreams. To swim upstream in a sense -against what people say I can't or shouldn't do. But it's so hard when the only one you trust, really trust is yourself, and even then you doubt sometimes.