[DatAssInDaGrass]

Hello everyone. I've been unsure of my type for a while now but I was wondering if anyone else has ever felt this way, or maybe I just have issues. (Which I'm alright with, cause and explanation would be great.)

Anywho, so whenever something happens, especially if its with someone I really care about (have feelings for) I can obsess about whatever it is and get really hurt by what I believe is probably whats going on, and I feel lied to and betrayed. Like if I have plans with someone and last minute they tell me "Oh, I'm going to go with so and so, such and such place, and I'll see you after." That can bother me. I know we don't have plans, but why can't you just do said thing with me? Sounds childish, stupid, whatever I am aware, I feel like an imbecile because I rarely show my feelings and one of the only people I ever chose to tell how I feel to, can do things that make me feel like I'm not as good as others to go do things with. I feel as though It's better to be with other people than me and I'm a last resort, and that there's something fishy going on or I'm being lied to when things don't click together.

I'm not sure if this makes any sense because at the moment I rather not go back and re read this or I'm going to go crazy fixing it but hopefully someone catches onto what I'm saying.

Does anyone ever feel this way? I get to the point where I can over think and over think and keep going thinking about the same thing that is bothering me for hours on end, never ending really.... Then for a brief moment I can tell myself it doesn't matter and my feelings go to not caring, but then I go back to caring when I think of something else, and it goes back and forth and back and forth and....
Blah. I'm done now. Any feedback would be great. Thanks =]

[Jazz0101]

Not sure what that has to do with being bipolar?

[DatAssInDaGrass]

Not sure what that has to do with being bipolar?

The fact that I can go from feeling alright, and in a few seconds think about something so much, that I feel miserable, and it's like my feelings are in limbo..

[Jazz0101]

You would have more symptoms than that if you were bipolar-anything else make you think that?..but if you are really concerned it would be best to see a physician or go to a mental health clinic.

[Danse Macabre]

The fact that I can go from feeling alright, and in a few seconds think about something so much, that I feel miserable, and it's like my feelings are in limbo..

Bipolar disorder is going from feeling euphoric, incredible, unstoppable and FULL OF ENERGY and then you get depressed, have no hope, don't even always have a reason for feeling the way you do. I just want to say that because a lot of people say "Gosh is he/she bipolar" or wonder if they're bipolar when they don't know what it encompasses.

I'd offer my thoughts or advice if I had any regarding your post but I'm really not sure what's going on - I think it just sounds like you have really low self esteem.

[goldentryst]

Hello everyone. I've been unsure of my type for a while now but I was wondering if anyone else has ever felt this way, or maybe I just have issues. (Which I'm alright with, cause and explanation would be great.)

Anywho, so whenever something happens, especially if its with someone I really care about (have feelings for) I can obsess about whatever it is and get really hurt by what I believe is probably whats going on, and I feel lied to and betrayed. Like if I have plans with someone and last minute they tell me "Oh, I'm going to go with so and so, such and such place, and I'll see you after." That can bother me. I know we don't have plans, but why can't you just do said thing with me? Sounds childish, stupid, whatever I am aware, I feel like an imbecile because I rarely show my feelings and one of the only people I ever chose to tell how I feel to, can do things that make me feel like I'm not as good as others to go do things with. I feel as though It's better to be with other people than me and I'm a last resort, and that there's something fishy going on or I'm being lied to when things don't click together.

I'm not sure if this makes any sense because at the moment I rather not go back and re read this or I'm going to go crazy fixing it but hopefully someone catches onto what I'm saying.

Does anyone ever feel this way? I get to the point where I can over think and over think and keep going thinking about the same thing that is bothering me for hours on end, never ending really.... Then for a brief moment I can tell myself it doesn't matter and my feelings go to not caring, but then I go back to caring when I think of something else, and it goes back and forth and back and forth and....
Blah. I'm done now. Any feedback would be great. Thanks =]

That is totally me, all of it. And it really has nothing to do with being bipolar--that's a different matter altogether.

I too can obsess over and pick at something for hours on end, all the while driving myself crazy. I've come to think I'm some sort of a masochist after all these years. Seems simple doesn't it?: If it worries you so much, just don't think about it. Yet, I cannot NOT think about something. Just like you said, about how you get suspicious over people and their motives, so do I. If someone cancelled their date with me the last moment I too would get peevish and sort of leverage all the blame on them, with things like "Why couldn't he/she just tell me sooner?" "What the fuck, I got all ready for nothing?" "Shit, so annoying." and etc. I also suspect of them things like "What if he/she is ditching me to go hang out with someone else?" "Did I do something wrong earlier? Was it something I said?" And I obsess over the issue that should have been nothing from the start, that I made into a big deal for myself. Yet even so, most of the time I keep it all to myself (even though my head is about to explode), because I KNOW it's unreasonable and childish. Yet I CANNOT stop.

Even when something seems totally unreal and farfetched in happening, like the chances are little to none, I can totally make myself believe that there's a huge chance of it happening. Especially if it's something negative. I tend to worry a lot and get anxious.

And yes, that thing about briefly not caring because I clear my mind and tell myself, "Nothing is wrong at ALL, stop worrying; you're crazy," and I will be fine for a few minutes to an hour, until my mind slowly starts slipping back into that dark hole.

So, you're not alone. x] I don't think this has to do with INFPs though, probably something else like...being generally sorta cynical? Like having mistrust in people. Also, with being a worrywart.

[Rushing Wind]

Good news, you don't have bipolar disorder -- yay for you (and quite honestly, many people around you....)

Bad news (but really, this pales in comparison to the good news here, so if you are INFp, go ahead and cast fire, fira, or firaga (aim carefully...don't want to set the ficus tree aflame) in jubulant celebration, cuz the above stuff is really, really good news) : Macabre is right, this is a good, old fashioned, self esteem issue here. what's causing it (at least in part) is what we in cognitive psychology like to call 'cognitive distortions '. in English, you are telling yourself lies, or assumptions that do nothing but bring you down. in plainer English, you are interpreting things that happen to you in a way that attacks your self worth and possibly has several other nasty side effects as well.

good news within the bad news : cognitive distortions are more common than oxygen (I think that could be proved mathematically .... if I was an engineer or statistician...) and happen to everyone--daily. with awareness, attention, and time, they are very correctable.
1. research cognitive distortions. if you can't find any info, message me, and ill send you some goods
2. apply what you learn. when you have a CD, replace that thought with a rational, affirming statement. ie. your girlfriend says 'I can't hang out with you today. ' unless she is being VERY cold or VERY different, don't assume she doesn't like you or doesn't want to be around you. Take what she says at face value. 'I have homework (or) I forgot this (or) I have to do that ' means exactly as such.
3. expect the change to be slow. cuz it is... unless you are awesome at it. but persistence will when out

* whew * that's alot, I know, and its not a solve-all when it comes to how you think the way you do. but how you think and interpret events has a huge effect on how you feel.

[Rushing Wind]

2 more things. I grew up doing this. I know what it feels like (it pretty much sucks...... I mean... it does) . I also know its reversible because I've done it. its a daily thing.... or rather a moment by moment thing, but eventually.you see the patterns and it gets easier.

add this to your list : stop treating yourself like the victim. sure life is hard, or they could have.told you earlier, but that doesn't matter. stop focusing on the possibilities of what they meant (Ne .... but in a really bad kind of way) and simply take peoples words and events that happen to you at face value (acceptance... its a really good version of Si.) telling yourself / others that your crazy, lame, stupid is a CD, too. it will hurt you much more than you think. you're capable. human, but capable. it may take you 2, 20 or 200 times to get it, but you can. so stop treating yourself like you're less than special.

[Sonne]

That is totally me, all of it. And it really has nothing to do with being bipolar--that's a different matter altogether.

I too can obsess over and pick at something for hours on end, all the while driving myself crazy. I've come to think I'm some sort of a masochist after all these years. Seems simple doesn't it?: If it worries you so much, just don't think about it. Yet, I cannot NOT think about something. Just like you said, about how you get suspicious over people and their motives, so do I. If someone cancelled their date with me the last moment I too would get peevish and sort of leverage all the blame on them, with things like "Why couldn't he/she just tell me sooner?" "What the fuck, I got all ready for nothing?" "Shit, so annoying." and etc. I also suspect of them things like "What if he/she is ditching me to go hang out with someone else?" "Did I do something wrong earlier? Was it something I said?" And I obsess over the issue that should have been nothing from the start, that I made into a big deal for myself. Yet even so, most of the time I keep it all to myself (even though my head is about to explode), because I KNOW it's unreasonable and childish. Yet I CANNOT stop.

Even when something seems totally unreal and farfetched in happening, like the chances are little to none, I can totally make myself believe that there's a huge chance of it happening. Especially if it's something negative. I tend to worry a lot and get anxious.

And yes, that thing about briefly not caring because I clear my mind and tell myself, "Nothing is wrong at ALL, stop worrying; you're crazy," and I will be fine for a few minutes to an hour, until my mind slowly starts slipping back into that dark hole.

So, you're not alone. x] I don't think this has to do with INFPs though, probably something else like...being generally sorta cynical? Like having mistrust in people. Also, with being a worrywart.

Thi^^^^. I overthink, overanalyze, worry too much, feel like the worlds coming to an end if something doens't work out the way I thought it would, since I conceived of every possibility, you know? I suspect everyone of ulterior motives. Tad bit paranoid about what people are saying, feeling, or thinking . . . about me . . . constantly. Almost always worried about something, even if I'm trying to relax.

So, umm, yeah.

*bites finger tips*

[DatAssInDaGrass]

That is totally me, all of it. And it really has nothing to do with being bipolar--that's a different matter altogether.

I too can obsess over and pick at something for hours on end, all the while driving myself crazy. I've come to think I'm some sort of a masochist after all these years. Seems simple doesn't it?: If it worries you so much, just don't think about it. Yet, I cannot NOT think about something. Just like you said, about how you get suspicious over people and their motives, so do I. If someone cancelled their date with me the last moment I too would get peevish and sort of leverage all the blame on them, with things like "Why couldn't he/she just tell me sooner?" "What the fuck, I got all ready for nothing?" "Shit, so annoying." and etc. I also suspect of them things like "What if he/she is ditching me to go hang out with someone else?" "Did I do something wrong earlier? Was it something I said?" And I obsess over the issue that should have been nothing from the start, that I made into a big deal for myself. Yet even so, most of the time I keep it all to myself (even though my head is about to explode), because I KNOW it's unreasonable and childish. Yet I CANNOT stop.

Even when something seems totally unreal and farfetched in happening, like the chances are little to none, I can totally make myself believe that there's a huge chance of it happening. Especially if it's something negative. I tend to worry a lot and get anxious.

And yes, that thing about briefly not caring because I clear my mind and tell myself, "Nothing is wrong at ALL, stop worrying; you're crazy," and I will be fine for a few minutes to an hour, until my mind slowly starts slipping back into that dark hole.

So, you're not alone. x] I don't think this has to do with INFPs though, probably something else like...being generally sorta cynical? Like having mistrust in people. Also, with being a worrywart.

Exactly! Thank you =] I tend to feel exactly like this when I'm really stressed out or something, but it really drains me because it's just so tiring....
I wrote it in this forum because I found a thread that was somewhat about this, but not really, thanks! Glad to know I'm not alone :P