[One4YesTwo4No]

That's very morbid. I'm sure you have something to live for in this world, weather you know it or not. There's always something to live for. No one should throw their life away, as they leave behind so many people who care. Trust me on this, life is worth living, even if it doesn't seem like it.

Thank you. I'm sorry... I'm just feeling bad right now.

[SingingBird]

Thank you. I'm sorry... I'm just feeling bad right now.

Understandable, we all have them. I hope you feel better soon.

[gaudy316]

I did post a few months ago here and want to do it again now.

Within this alien world are beautiful treasures that stand out so brilliant.y once they are spotted. Love. Peace. Forgiveness. Happiness. Even if they are short moments. I live as a treasure hunter finding these moments, or better yet, creating them. This alien world gives me a bigger reason to love and that is to help people and spread my ideals of love and acceptance. I feel needed.

Nonetheless, I question my purpose when a lot of people have rejected me, including my own parents. But beyond them is my savior Jesus Christ, the biggest idealist of all who taught nothing but love and forgiveness. I recognize the beauty of them. No matter how anyone can discredit Jesus ' existence or resurrection, can't disregard the teachings. Even Christians today and in history have caused a lot more pain and misery to each other and others. But in the end, it is the beauty of love I seek, and in her I find my respite. Then, reality begins to change. There is something right in this world after all...

[GreenLadyBug]

Didn't see this thread the first time it came around so I'll post now. I feel the same way as you. And I'm unhappy with my life. Right now I am a science major in college and I hate it because it is absolutely what I don't want to do. I've considered joining a monestery or something because that's more up my alley but I don't know how possible that is. I guess I just keep this strong idea in my head that sooner or later I will finally be able to just drop everything and help the world. It's the only thing that keeps me going.

[Andvari]

About a month ago or two, I remember that I've read a thread about how basically every single description about INFP seems to make us a 'cursed' type in this so-called Real world. All every single description, for example, like how we're idealists, how we're introverted, don't seem to like working together with people, even tend to withdraw in solitude, and then of how we hate details, routine, whereas in fact ALL & every job surely will have some details in it. and then of how we have business (well guess what, hello, almost EVERY thing in this damn Real world is all about money & business & selling & 'commercialism'), etc etc.

So I just want to be very very honest this time instead of posting the usual/typical rosy rainbow-ish thread/topic about INFPs.
I practically just want to cut through all the BS, and just want to ask this utmost serious, & practical question for every one of you INFPs:

Seriously, how can you keep LIVING (or existing??) in such an 'alien' world like this?...

A world that most likely be way too damn cold & indifferent for us,
A world that most likely be too dull & boring for your constant high & vivid imaginations & creativity,
A world that most likely seem to be ready to betray even crush all your hope & idealisms,
A world where it's unfortunately still about survival of the fittest, and that prefers "competition" than being in harmony or peace,
A world where people keep fighting with each other, jostling each other, all in the name/for the sake of "Profits", "Capitalisms", "for Innovation", while forsaking all truly essential simple things such as: Beauty, Harmony, Nature.

How?...
how can you NOT often wishing to just shoot yourself and die already,..maybe there's a New world/afterlife, where we are not damn limited by this Real-world's rules, notions, norms, etc...where we can be totally FREE to express ourselves and BE who we are,..where we can be FREE like in our most vivid dreams & imaginations..., or even a Nothingness is still better than to constantly have to drag your feet & body from the bed every morning?

Need your opinions direly.
thx.

To be honest I've been very interested in seeing 'what's on the other side', but like... I just don't wanna die LOL

I don't necessarily like everything about the world we've been placed in, western culture promotes a lot of the ideas you presented there, I think Eastern societies are closer to what some of our 'ideals' are.

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This next section is in response to the 'A world' section of the post.

Yeah, the world's cold and indifferent... but it's also good at times, what are you gonna do, change the world's ideas lol?

I wish my imagination could come true, but this is reality, and it just won't happen, I just make do and create what I can when I can, and I'm satisfied with that.

Yeah, my idealism and hope gets crushed a lot, but I'm always reminding myself not to get too lost in the clouds and ground myself with realistic expectations lest I be dissapointed for the rest of my life. Failing isn't falling down, it's notpicking yourself up and trying again. I'll never give up, and hopefully not too many other people will either.

Actually I can get extremely competitive at times, most of the time it's because I want to better myself, and other times it's because some dickhead has a giant ego and I just want to humble his sorry ass in anything. :P

Keep in mind that these 'essential' things you speak of don't apply to everyone, therefore they won't place as much importance on them as you do... Like I said earlier, it might've been an unfair generalisation but I think Eastern cultures value 'peace, harmony' etc. more than Western cultures.

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The reason why we have rules etc. might be because the dominant populace isn't as laissez-faire as we are, mankind likes progress, the human race didn't get this far by being 'carefree' if you know what I mean.

I personally respect engineers and the amount of work they put into their projects, it's amazing to see how far we've come and how technology is helping the world. I don't agree with the engineers using their knowledge for warfare but I still respect them. I also find it funny how some contemporary designs combine technology with environmentalism; it's like we're trying to mimic nature and at the same time adding our own twist to it.

For the last part, if you shot yourself and died, how would your family/friends feel? Think about the aftermath and emotional/financial consequences. Is it really worth losing your life now over something you're going to meet at later in life anyway? Personally I don't live just for myself and that's just my point of view.

Frankly I think some people need to stop victimising themselves and do something about it, whether it be in real life or by killing themselves to be 'free'; whatever that's your business, and your philosophy on life.

Live (or die) how you want, but if you do choose to die, please don't drag others down with you because there's still a lot of this world that IS worth experiencing.

[Lauren Wolfe]

Most of my everyday life makes me want to die. But if ever faced with death, I doubt I could do it. That's natural though.

[niki]

Does anybody else here also experience or can relate with what what I wrote above? (sorry, I have to jack-up this thread of mine again, need some thoughts & opinions).

and btw, Money sucks.