it may help others. i just figured out why i am too abstract for myself to handle. i have over the last half year developed a sort of hate to the outside world.
I can say yes to this:
If the INFP does not learn how to deal with this perceived criticism, the INFP will begin to shut out the incoming information that causes them pain. This is a natural survivalistic technique for the INFP personality.
but only because ever since i started in the new class i was constantly questioned of why i was so strange. because of the others are practically ESTJ and ISTJ personalities. so no wonder why i did that.
that lead to this:
the INFP who exercises this type of self-protection regularly will become more and more unaware of other people's perspectives, and thus more and more isolated from a real understanding of the world that they live in.
and also i can accept the fact that i have developed this:
Depending on how serious the problem is, they may appear to be anything from "a bit eccentric" to "way out there". Many times other people are unable to understand or relate to these people.
if you can see yourself in this you might also be interested in the solutions to these problems. here are the solutions i found valuable:
INFP should try to perceive information objectively, before fitting it into their value system.
i also have to work on this:
They should try to see situations from other people's perspectives, without making personal judgments about the situations or the other people's perspectives. In general, they should work on exercising their iNtuition in a truly Extraverted sense.
my source is from The Personality Page