As I sit here, I realize that a lot of times in my past, I let people come and emotionally sat on me and took advantage of me in every possible chances they can take. Sometimes I would be mean back, of course... But, I felt like, it wasn't THAT effective against them, you know? Like it didn't hurt them back, or made you look better than them... And in the end, you lost out on so many chances to prove yourself and the world that you are not one to mess around with.
I can't count how many times I've had people knock me down a few pegs with my self-esteem and how many times they really punched me in the stomach with their harsh words. It's not just words... Sometimes it's cruel actions on their parts. And I sit here and regret never standing up for myself effectively and made them pay for what they've done to me.
But it's too late. These people are all gone now. INFPs are known to be, well... Soft-spoken, "too nice", never wanting to cause a riff. Many times I like to speak out about my true opinions but then people get mad at me, and then I feel bad and it sometimes makes me wonder if maybe, maybe in this society, people in general DO NOT like folks with a strong stance on certain things...
So instead, I get left a lot by people whom I really cherished. Friends would leave me for new, "stronger" friends, friends who are more louder, brash, aggressive in every way, and in a word... Fun. My first boyfriend forgot about me in 3 weeks flat after our long-term relationship ended with a new girl who is everything every men wanted... A strong, independent woman who knows what she wants and will take it because what she wants, she WILL get it.
I'm mumbling too much now, but... INFPs, were there ever any moments in life where you wished you could have effectively stood up for yourself and could have told the other person off from hurting you anymore?