I wonder if other people have ever felt this way, at least I know from other people's point of view that they don't care much about leaving their families behind and leaving for another country. Wish it was so easy for me but the truth is that I would feel really gulty about leaving my loved ones behind just so I can make a "better future" for myself. This has me really scared because really soon I'm gonna have to make this decision and I don't know if I should follow my feelings and just stay in my home or do what is, in another sense, "right" and build my future elsewhere.
I know that if I were to choose to leave it wouldn't mean that I won't see my family ever again but I really wanted to do so much for them and my country because the situation here is so bad and I really wanted to change it but I've got to face reality and realize that there's nothing I can do on my own right now.
It's this mixed feeling of guilt and impotence that I have right now. I can't seem to make it go away. I've tried talking about this to friends and family but all they were able to tell me was: "You've only got to think about yourself" or "Do what is best for yourself".
If you guys don't mind I'd really like to hear your oppinions and if you've ever had to face these kind of decisions...I believe that hearing about your stories would help me feel a lot better.