Iíve been having a life crisis for awhile, I feel like the last five years of my life have been spent staring at a fork in the road. I canít decide on career paths, relationships or anything else in my life really Ė I get a lot of internal ďWhat do I want to do versus what should I doĒ. I feel most of this stems from my INTJ / INFP personality disorder. I always get mixed results when I take personality tests. My Introverted and Intuition percentages are always over 80%, but my Thinking vs Feeling and Judging vs Perceiving are always in flux. As a child and still deep down Iím a true INFP, but with the way I was brought up and the world I was exposed to didnít allow this type of person to thrive. So I feel like over time Iíve developed more of an INTJ personality to shield myself from getting hurt and itís worked very well through my teen years and my adult life Ė INTJ is kind of like a safe place for me. However when it come to making big choices or developing relationships Iím paralyzed. I can't relate to logical types because I feel like I can't keep up or they're robots and I can't relate with emotional types because I was trained so heavily to repress and ignore emotional queues and then I go into my INTJ mode. Even typing this out I keep saying to myself ďWhy are you so weak and pathetic? Stop it! This is irrational b.s.Ē
Do any of you feel like this? In so many ways INFPs are set up for failure in society. Have any of you guys developed secondary personality traits to make it out there? How has it affected your life -- good or bad?
Am I making any sense?