[Brent Bennett]

Good question... I really don't know. I know I often feel like you do, that everyone else seems to be able to do things with (relative) ease, whereas I struggle with nearly everything. I think part of is a natural tendency of the INFP personality, but I also know that many healthy INFPs deal with this much better than I do. I've been depressed for... well, at least 15 years now, since I was a kid. The depression is a huge part of it, regardless of personality type... but being an INFP lends me to certain tendencies when feeling particularly depressed. I'm really not sure how to get out of it after it's been a way of life for so long. :S I guess that's why I've started therapy... yet again, haha.



But yeah, I completely understand. :(

And I understand that. I've been clinically depressed since around 2002, and I can't seem to get to a therapist to deal with it better. I know I need to deal with my depression much better, because it's been getting really worse.

I hope we both get to feeling better about everything honestly. I mean, I've been told so many times that "You only see the end result" But I just can't see other people putting any creative work going through what I;m sure we're both going through.

[ethylester]

Maybe he assumed that it got destroyed in the fire?

Maybe, but it was in the closet in his bedroom on the floor. There was nothing else in that closet other than a few pieces of smokey clothing. It seems he cleaned out the house pretty good of all the stuff he wanted to salvage... who knows. They were under some hunting magazines so maybe he thought it was just a pile of hunting magazines.

[basementbugs]

I hope we both get to feeling better about everything honestly.

Yeah, me too... me too. I keep telling myself that overcoming depression and such will be so worth it, but I often feel like I've even lost my ability to think that far ahead -- or even to believe it's possible.

Anyway, I'm done being Miss Misery Guts in this thread for today, haha. I always feel guilty, like I'm bringing others down if I post about feeling like crap. :S

[Absurdist]

I am avoiding everyone tonight to keep myself together. I want a cigarette so bad, but that would throw away 12 days and a handful of hours.

[Moon_Child]

I'm not all that sensitive.

I thought I was sensitive, and then I met people who are truly sensitive.

Hmmm...

[zobey]

Starting to think I have a little INTP in here somewhere.

[FiNe SiTe]

I'm very self-critical....-.-

[Somniorum]

Spiffy time fencing tonight!

Though I... erm, poked the super-cute lass somewhat... below the belt...

by accident, i swear!

[goldentryst]

Please, won't you remain for me a beautiful fantasy--
because I can't bare having to face the reality of You.
Keep your distance and let me admire you from afar.
Let me attribute all these wonderful traits to the You in my Mind.
But don't ever let the Real You come close to me.
Stay away.
I just want to admire you from afar.
So keep your distance.
Let me yearn for the You in my Mind; let me have my fun.

This is not a love song...
So... whatever happens--remember,
This is not a love song.

[Luke]

Spiffy time fencing tonight!

Though I... erm, poked the super-cute lass somewhat... below the belt...

by accident, i swear!

I'll remember to never challenge you to a duel.