INFP confession thread

**ethylester** · 03-09-2012 07:52 AM

Originally Posted by refugee

Parenthood?

Totally makes sense. I think I'm planning and analyzing the future a lot more these days. Also, I'm making decisions easier, it's like a weight has been lifted. I know what I want, when I want. I want things to be a certain way. I want to plan ahead. I want things to be all set before the deadline. I am seeing more clearly. I am also not as scared to say things that might cause an argument. I feel more self-assured. I don't want loose ends.

But then again, I don't like routines and schedules. Also, I like acting on my mood and not being tied down.

oh the p and j border... Will I dwell there forever?

**ThatOne** · 03-09-2012 09:49 AM

Confession:

I only made this post to get on the 1000 page. :3 Hai.

**wisdom** · 03-09-2012 11:00 AM

"Don't be shy" indicates ENF type and lingers like a foul odor.

**adverseaffects** · 03-09-2012 12:05 PM

Originally Posted by ethylester

Totally makes sense. I think I'm planning and analyzing the future a lot more these days. Also, I'm making decisions easier, it's like a weight has been lifted. I know what I want, when I want. I want things to be a certain way. I want to plan ahead. I want things to be all set before the deadline. I am seeing more clearly. I am also not as scared to say things that might cause an argument. I feel more self-assured. I don't want loose ends.

But then again, I don't like routines and schedules. Also, I like acting on my mood and not being tied down.

oh the p and j border... Will I dwell there forever?

Those don't sound like J qualities they sound like a healthy infp and smacks of you harnessing your Te in healthy ways. :'-) Go you.

**ThatOne** · 03-09-2012 12:13 PM

I'm sick of people passing judgement! D:< You don't fucking know me. You don't know why I'm pissed off in the first place. So DON'T put it down to me attention-seeking from my boyfriend. I can't help it if I claim that something else happened, just because I don't want him to get mad over me being angry with him. -.- I should fucking dump him. I feel betrayed right now. Goodbye to whatever few strands of trust I tried to save for HIM.

And I'm not "suddenly becoming angry," either. Because funnily enough I've tried to cover up my bad mood over texts. So no, I wasn't being moody, it wasn't a sudden leap into depression/distance. It was something that had gradually built up over time. And lastly, no, it wasn't 'cause of my stepfather. It was because of you. It's nearly ALWAYS because of you. Little things you do to annoy me. If you had been here and not at your house, I would've told you my problem with you.

And THANK YOU for the angry Facebook statuses you left on your Wall after I'd said I'd talk to you later. Thanks for being a whiny little bitch about how depressed you were. Thank you for having your little discussion with your bitch of a friend.

And gee, sorry if I'm too pissed off to care about how you feel.

**iinnffpp** · 03-09-2012 01:31 PM

I had a big fight with my dad yesterday and afterward I felt like killing him and then killing myself. My suicidal thoughts have seeped back because I over-thought about my family life and how much I hate my dad for ruining it. Then my rational side of the brain began to plead with me to stop the emotional outburst and to keep focused on my goals and to stop wasting my energy on shit I can't change. I can't stand this Jekyll-and-Hyde thought process. I just don't know how much longer I can sustain this kind of life.

This got me thinking very seriously that my dad has Aspergers. He is not a jerk because he might be an Aspie - if he is an Aspie, he coincidentally is also a jerk. They are two separate things, I know that. But the more and more I think about him, the more I realize that he is definitely not normal. His temper is not the only thing that stands out. There are just too many very Aspie characteristics about him I can't shake off- his propensity to take things literally, his hatred of anything out of place (and getting agitated and angry over it all the time), his insensitive, offensive remarks to people (regardless of who they are, strangers or family), etc. Now this makes me wonder if I might have it or if I'm a non-Aspie who's unfortunately and subconsciously learned a lot of his mannerisms. Which only upsets me even more. To think that this man is my father...

Some people are ashamed of their parents because of their low-status occupations. My father was too proud and stubborn to even swallow his pride to help my mother provide for the family by taking any job. He is an all-or-nothing type of person, and in his mind if he can't be that professor at a top research university, he won't do anything else. It's his attitude that shames me to death. I don't care what somebody does for a living as long as they have shown that they've done what they could to help themselves and their family. What has he done? Nothing but make everybody else's lives miserable as shit. He is a narcissist; the most selfish bastard I've ever met.

I am thinking about going to a Catholic church to confess my sins. Not because I am Catholic, or because I intend to believe in a lot of the nonsense rules. But the thought of a priest listening to me is really, really looking awesome right now. I'm not religious; I am agnostic. But literally this very moment I need to cling to something.

**NeonBomb** · 03-09-2012 02:16 PM

Love at first sight with a Nepalese waiter

I don't believe in marriage but I'd give up my life for him

Not good looking, hot or cute... truly beautiful

I ordered alcohol with my meal just so he knew I was of age (LOL)

Wow I'm still mind blown

The universe has produced a breathtakingly beautiful cosmic creature

**Kaspa** · 03-09-2012 02:45 PM

I've found joy in sobrierity. Something that I thought I've had lost in the past.
I've been hard drinker for two years. Now I feel like I'm in a complete control.

I fell in love to this music.

**YouPullMeThroughTime** · 03-09-2012 04:07 PM

Confession: I've been waiting longer than I'm proud of to make the 10,000th post in here... ;)

Happy 10,000 - to one of the most interesting threads on PerC!

**chip** · 03-09-2012 05:34 PM

I haven't been out in over two years. My room mate wants me to go out to a bar with her and I really don't want to. I know that some moronic drunk is going to fucking touch me and that will be the end of the night. Someone will pull back a fucking nub.