I am clearly an introvert. I'm not falling off the end of the introvert/extrovert sliding scale or anything, but there is no question that I stand with both feet planted firmly in the territory of I.
And yet, to those who know me well, I talk a lot. Raise an interesting topic and I can go on and on. I really would prefer a conversation to a monologue, but sometimes all you can do is your best under the circumstances. I honestly don't intend to bore anyone. If the audience is disinterested this is very distressing and I will endeavor to keep quiet as far as possible.
Sometimes this is not possible.
I was briefly but passionately excited about the cognitive functions list for INFPs, but after doing more research it began to seem that the extraverted thinking they mentioned was not necessarily the extroverted thinking I wanted to discuss.
I introvert my feelings. They are not hidden, exactly, but they are private, something that must be processed internally before I can know what they mean, or speak and act usefully on them.
But as for thoughts.. I once told my parents, who complained that I talked too much about inorganic chemistry, that if I wasn't talking I wasn't learning. I can also write to think, though it can take much longer and anything formal is very stressful. I feel almost no motivation to write if I have no expectation that my words will ever be read.
I don't want a monologue, honestly. Ideally, no matter the format, I'd like a conversation.
I feel this problem in my major. I'm studying computer science. The programming is fine because the conversation between the computer and me during the programming/debugging process is enough. I am talking. We're both talking, and I'm learning.
It's harder to talk about the other things I'm leaning, increasingly technical, decreasingly interesting to any of my friends. Even with classmates, no one seems really keen to discuss it after class.
Is this a problem that other INFPs have encountered? Truly, a simple "me too" would be very much appreciated. It's lonely here.
If anyone has tips or suggestions, let me express my gratitude in advance. This issue is really affecting my enthusiasm for my major, which makes me so sad because there are times when I adore it so much I could burst into embarrassing song and be completely okay with the weird looks.