I'm really really sorry to bring my superficial problems to you,
All my close friends are ESxx and it is literally impossible for me to cope with them sometimes, I really might aswell have melted into the pavement yesterday. They know how much I really hate going for nights out constantly meeting people while dressed in ankle murdering heels and all. But last night they made me walk over a mile with them after our meal them so they could flirt with some idiot guys I didn't even know (and have random men out on a satuday night beeping their horns at us ugh) , I just stood there like a lump of sugar and admired the trees and such saying nothing for half an hour. They have no respect for anything that I want to do or say. They just talk about people none stop, their many other nights out and act like snobby shallow people... if i'm one on one with one of them they actually try to listen and accept my weird outbursts but the rest of the time they are attention whores. People don't even notice that i'm there when i'm with them.
I have no idea how they ended up accepting me into their "group" but by the end of the night I felt like I just wanted to spend a week confided in a box away from everybody. Yes I am an alienated teenager looking for answers. I'd also love to write music and have no idea where to start.
Sorry again, I really spent ages deliberating whether to share this problem or not