I've always enjoyed alone. I've always been a loner. I mean, I have always attracted a substantial amount of people and friends in my life, but essentially I did not always need them to seek comfort or happiness. As long as I remember, i was off somewhere by myself, digging whatever and would probably be boring the hell out of anyone if they were there. I remember often as a young adult going out by myself to crowded people places and sitting there, perhaps writing poems about life in my mind or on paper, as if my own little island...all alone...no matter the crowds around me.
I will tell you also from years of experience that few really understand, except perhaps 'us' and that 'they' will always try to buzz kill you from being how you are by manipulating you into believing that you are somehow damaged goods. Guilt sucks...it really does and it also does nothing for the way we live our lives.
Listen to your heart...to that silent little place of calm... and know that what works for the noisy extroverted world does not always work for us.