i know this might sound over dramatic but i just don't wanna have to care anymore. it's too draining not only emotionally but physically as well. just shortly after that thread i made about making out with some guy at a party, my ex came back into my life and he said that this time everything would be perfect. i believed him, and i was actually supposed to move back into my toronto apartment today so i could be closer to him, but this morning everything changed. he told me that we could never be together and that this long distance thing wont work out because there are just too many complications. he says this all the time when stress becomes too much and weeks later he gets in contact with me and we're back at it, but this time he was just hurtful. he went on to say how he has passed up so many girls and that he is going to find someone else. lol i nearly had a heart attack, i just wished that i had never met him because ive never felt that much hurt in my life. it was so unbearable and after going through this so many times i WISH that there was some way to not care anymore. i don't want to cry, i don't want to be upset.