[InternalWonderous]

It's discrepancy at work. Proper positioning of the moon also seems to have some affect.

Hahahahahahha.

[bws]

"The Zone"... Do I detect a hint of Ansel Adams?

[bws]

After giving this topic serious consideration, I submit that there is a subtle difference of what I prefer to do and what I usually do. If given the time and the privacy, I'll work on my nature photography or write erotic stories (yeah I said it... from what I've been told, some of it's like 50 shades of gray, although I've never even heard of that one until recently).

However, normally, after departing work, I just sit in my truck and swear at the top of my lungs for 15 or 20 minutes, with the windows up and the key OUT of the ignition, before I head for home. Does wonders, as well as gets some curious looks from time to time.

[Hycocritical truth teller]

You're not alone in that. I think everyone here has felt that way at one point. I'm still not immune to it. That's why it's so important to find things you like to do to help relieve the tension or maybe even take your mind off of things. Surely there must be something you have fun doing.

Yeah i do kinda. But doing these kinds of things usually gets me in trouble in the first place. So they are not anymore smth to relax with anymore. They are then smth that reminds me i should be doing smth else instead.
But then again, it wasn't always like this. I used to have a pretty good balance with my fun time and my obligations.
I'm just trying to find a middle ground.
But there is actually: good tv series always makes me giggle, good book, new interest, things i take as my primarily interest in general. All in all if it makes me happy and if its a good news - yeah it always helps.
But i do admit i have to start realizing and pressure on my self won't help em resolve my problems. I think i need more realistic goals as well. And i do think i need to except taht im not the god all mighty and that im gonna destroy my physical body with stress but problems will be resolved.
I'm gonna learn with time.
But then when i think of it - what really calms me down in setting some things more realistic as my goals, analyzing how badly would failure effect me and is it really the end of the world or there is always another resolution in that case and i usually find out there would be less room for failure if i would stop putting too much weight on my problems. Trying to improve my perspective to make myself more relaxed and therefore more productive really helps.

[InternalWonderous]

Yeah i do kinda. But doing these kinds of things usually gets me in trouble in the first place. So they are not anymore smth to relax with anymore. They are then smth that reminds me i should be doing smth else instead.
But then again, it wasn't always like this. I used to have a pretty good balance with my fun time and my obligations.
I'm just trying to find a middle ground.
But there is actually: good tv series always makes me giggle, good book, new interest, things i take as my primarily interest in general. All in all if it makes me happy and if its a good news - yeah it always helps.
But i do admit i have to start realizing and pressure on my self won't help em resolve my problems. I think i need more realistic goals as well. And i do think i need to except taht im not the god all mighty and that im gonna destroy my physical body with stress but problems will be resolved.
I'm gonna learn with time.
But then when i think of it - what really calms me down in setting some things more realistic as my goals, analyzing how badly would failure effect me and is it really the end of the world or there is always another resolution in that case and i usually find out there would be less room for failure if i would stop putting too much weight on my problems. Trying to improve my perspective to make myself more relaxed and therefore more productive really helps.

Good stuff. I think the biggest part of the equation is having people that you can talk to that genuinely care about you. Once we realize that we are not alone in this, and that other people know the pain we are going through, it makes dealing with things so much easier.

[Dolorous Haze]

Daydreaming, reading, writing, painting/drawing, playing guitar and piano (badly) and walking around aimlessly (usually while listening to music and/or daydreaming.)