Diary time. Not really proofreading, just puking up my thoughts to get it out.
Spilling my guts in 3 2 1
I happen to be sitting on my new bed, in my new dorm, in my new college at the moment.
I moved in yesterday, and I'm having trouble adjusting.
I'm getting along with my roommate, but I feel incredibly lonely.
It's a wonder to me how I ever made friends in highschool.
I hear people down the hall all laughing and having a good time. Occaisionally I see some people around campus I'd really love to get to know.
I do plan on joining clubs, and granted, classes haven't started yet and it's only been a day and a half,
but I'm just... beside myself. Homesickness, and dissatisfaction with my major, little confidence in my ability to keep up with classes, little privacy, etc. I feel like I won't meet people I have things in common with because I'm in a major where I know I won't find people who have many things in common with me. I should be in a humanities major.
(wahwahwah right? first world problems)
I wan't to study history education, but my parents want me to study communicative disorders. They're paying my full tuition, so it's not like I can just tell them no. Again, classes haven't started, and idk if i'll even like my major yet at this point. Who knows, I could be very good at it and like it alot
But something tells me I won't. I just really want to teach history.
Although, honestly, what do I know? I could have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about.
Not looking for advice, per say, just thoughts. If you went to college, how was your freshman year, or your college experience in general?
Thanks. : (