If this is Enneagram-related, I get the feeling I'll be alone for the most part. Type 2 INFP's are apparently rare. With me, Anger's an old friend. That old friend you do not want to ever meet your parents because you know what a complete fucking psycho they are, but love hanging out with them, because, hey, they're fun. I live my life in an almost constant haze of controlling and repressing my ever-growing anger. It took me years to do this well enough to get off the anti-psychotics; which were the only thing at the time that kept me from picking up some random schmuck and doing to him what Darth Vader would be proud of. The level of fury I live with is both terrifying and exhilarating. On one hand, I know I have to keep myself in check, lest I lose control and become a monster; on the other hand, the purity of the emotion is just so intoxicating and I damn near get off to it. It's a constant struggle to control something that is so innate to my personality; something so natural to who I am - yet must be locked away.




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