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Originally Posted by SLN  I've always searched for "the one", and was willing to wait for that. But at the same time I also believe that many people have the potential of being 'the one' for any given individual. I've only had a few (teenage) crushes in my life, and I'm now engaged to my first woman I've ever really loved. Loving someone is rare for me, but when it happens I'm completely devoted to that person and loyal as can be. |
This resonates with me, and possibly with the very same intensity in which the above was written (and felt). Love that is not bound by duty or disposition (as in filial piety et al.) but accorded to someone by my own emotional volition is something that is indescribably sacrosanct; and that I have reserved for the best-est of my friends. My only qualm is that because of this, I realise that I possess the capacity to love anyone. Coupled with the fact that I have a weakness for affirmation in the emotional department, I suppose I could say that I have fallen, and fallen hard in more ways than one. Lines have been blurred, if you know what I mean.
It gets really tiring to let go, that I sometimes (though disturbing) think that my capacity to love (in the strictest, most altruistic sense of the word) is very limited. Not 'I <3 u' love but love of the unspoken sort - tacit, and sublime.
I've only been in one relationship though - and that's a best friendship gone awfully, awfully wrong.
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