Last night my housemate asked what I'm doing for New Year's Eve. I told her the truth - nothing. This semester I've felt down because I spend most of my time alone while my friends go out partying. I hate sitting in my room with a so-so movie on yet another Friday or Saturday, knowing everyone else is having fun without me.
My housemate suggested I do something with her. At first I turned her down, assuming she'd be heading to a crazy party, but she told me that instead, she's thinking of going to a small pub downtown and just hanging out, maybe listening to a band play. That sounds like my kind of thing, so I agreed to go, although now I'm feeling kind of anxious about it.
First, my housemate often makes plans with me, then backs out of them or changes them drastically, so I half expect that she'll pull that kind of action again. For instance, I may show up to find she's invited all 2,500 of her Facebook friends, and the pub is too packed for anyone to sit down. Or, more likely, she'll decide to do something else altogether - something less to my taste.
I was considering the latter when it occurred to me that if she does back out, I could go to the pub alone. At first the thought was exciting - you never know who you'll meet, or what great band might be playing, etc. But then I wondered what would happen if I arrived and felt awkward, wound up hiding for an hour in a corner, looking stupid, and left feeling like more of a social failure than if I'd spent another night with Netflix.
Any other socially-anxious, lonely INFJ's have suggestions, support, or advice to offer? What are YOU all doing to ring in the New Year?