Tonight I was taking a walk with a friend and, as usually happens with this friend, she opened up and we were talking about somewhat private things. Lately we talk a lot about what we want in the future. When it was my turn to reveal what I wanted, I couldn't be as specific or open as she would have liked, which was somewhat irritating to her, I think. Not irritating, really, but perplexing maybe.
Beyond feeling slightly embarrassed about telling her my secret, I've found that lately I'm afraid to say out loud what it is I want. I've had a lot of disappointments and hard luck in the past few months, and, as cynical as it sounds, I almost feel like if I say out loud what I want, then it just gives the universe a chance to deny me that, too.
Perhaps some things are too precious to share out loud. Any thoughts on this?