I keep reading from others about the suicidal INFJs they know.
1. Have you ever considered suicide?
2. Have you ever attempted to kill yourself?
3. What kept you from killing yourself?
4. What will stop you from killing yourself in the future?
I don't think I've ever considered suicide. At least seriously. Of course there were moments I was frustrated and I go, "Bah, I'll go kill myself so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore." But to think how I'd actually do it scares me. I never think any further than that. I've never come anywhere near to trying to kill myself.
What keeps me from killing myself is probably love. My parents will blame themselves. I can't even begin to imagine the crying fit my mother will get into. One of my friends told me about her friend who committed suicide. Years later, she is still affected. I don't know if my friends will feel the same way... I have a feeling at least a few of them will also blame themselves for not being there for me. And be angry with me for not reaching out to them.
It sounds like the reason I'm keeping myself alive is the fear of hurting and disappointing people. But in many ways, I live for others.
What about you? What are your thoughts on suicide?