Suicide

**Rouge** · 05-03-2010 08:18 PM

I keep reading from others about the suicidal INFJs they know.

1. Have you ever considered suicide?

2. Have you ever attempted to kill yourself?

3. What kept you from killing yourself?

4. What will stop you from killing yourself in the future?

I don't think I've ever considered suicide. At least seriously. Of course there were moments I was frustrated and I go, "Bah, I'll go kill myself so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore." But to think how I'd actually do it scares me. I never think any further than that. I've never come anywhere near to trying to kill myself.

What keeps me from killing myself is probably love. My parents will blame themselves. I can't even begin to imagine the crying fit my mother will get into. One of my friends told me about her friend who committed suicide. Years later, she is still affected. I don't know if my friends will feel the same way... I have a feeling at least a few of them will also blame themselves for not being there for me. And be angry with me for not reaching out to them.

It sounds like the reason I'm keeping myself alive is the fear of hurting and disappointing people. But in many ways, I live for others.

What about you? What are your thoughts on suicide?

**lycanized** · 05-03-2010 08:19 PM

My mom's an INFJ...She's considered suicide many times...she's only attempted it twice that I know about. She swallowed 80 Zoloft which was more than enough to kill her...so that was a miracle...She says she won't kill herslef because she loves my dad, and my sisters and I too much...

**thehigher** · 05-03-2010 08:22 PM

My best friend is an INFJ. He hasn't tried or anything. But I was talking about how.... sometimes when I'm driving.... I'll just think ... "I'm just going to keep going" and ... there will be a turn up ahead but a tree in front of me.... so if I dont turn ill hit the tree..... so sometimes Ill speed up.... but then slow down and take the turn. Apparently he's done this also. But no... neither of us would actually do it.

**Rouge** · 05-03-2010 08:23 PM

Originally Posted by Queen of Leaves

My mom's an INFJ...She's considered suicide many times...she's only attempted it twice that I know about. She swallowed 80 Zoloft which was more than enough to kill her...so that was a miracle...She says she won't kill herslef because she loves my dad, and my sisters and I too much...

Wow... did she ever tell you why she tried to kill herself? I'm sorry if I'm prying. You don't have to answer this if you don't want to.

I can understand the part on staying alive for her loved ones though. It's the same way I feel.

**lycanized** · 05-03-2010 08:25 PM

Originally Posted by Rouge

Wow... did she ever tell you why she tried to kill herself? I'm sorry if I'm prying. You don't have to answer this if you don't want to.

I can understand the part on staying alive for her loved ones though. It's the same way I feel.

She's been depressed...She's depressed partly because she doesn't feel independent and because my grandma doesn't make her feel like she's an adult. She's also depressed because of she grew up seeing my grandpa and uncle fighting and almost killing each other...She was forced to marry some creeptastic dude back 20+ years ago and he would rape her...She's had a lot of other shit in her life that she says she hasn't told me about...

**Rouge** · 05-03-2010 08:26 PM

Originally Posted by thehigher

My best friend is an INFJ. He hasn't tried or anything. But I was talking about how.... sometimes when I'm driving.... I'll just think ... "I'm just going to keep going" and ... there will be a turn up ahead but a tree in front of me.... so if I dont turn ill hit the tree..... so sometimes Ill speed up.... but then slow down and take the turn. Apparently he's done this also. But no... neither of us would actually do it.

What stopped you in the end? Do you think you'd ever go through with it one day?

**Humilis Curator** · 05-03-2010 08:28 PM

Suicide is a terrible terrible thing for anyone feel is their only option left. No one should feel that way, it is a sad place to be in. When I was younger I thought about it but that was many years ago and now I am against it fiercely, like I said it is a terrible terrible state of mind to be in but it is....a selfish act to do not that the person themselves is but it is a selfish act, all the people you leave behind that you might think don't care about you, do and will miss you. People need to empower themselves to get out of the situation and pull yourself out.

**Rouge** · 05-03-2010 08:29 PM

Originally Posted by Queen of Leaves

She's been depressed...She's depressed partly because she doesn't feel independent and because my grandma doesn't make her feel like she's an adult. She's also depressed because of she grew up seeing my grandpa and uncle fighting and almost killing each other...She was forced to marry some creeptastic dude back 20+ years ago and he would rape her...She's had a lot of other shit in her life that she says she hasn't told me about...

I'm sorry to hear about her terrible experiences, Queenie. I'm so glad she has you and your family to make up for all the bad stuff *hugs*

**thehigher** · 05-03-2010 08:31 PM

Originally Posted by Rouge

What stopped you in the end? Do you think you'd ever go through with it one day?

I don't think so. I think it's more just a way of expressing frustration more than an actual attempt at suicide. It's like punching a pillow or breaking a dish..... in this instance... the object of destruction is the self. In all of these instances there is one common theme.... something is being destroyed. It's a projection of wanting your pain to die. Some people put their problems on the outside world and deal with them there. Some people really feel like it is them.... in which they become hard on themselves. As for me.... thats all it was.... just a way of expressing emotion.... nothing more.

**Rouge** · 05-03-2010 08:38 PM

Originally Posted by thehigher

I don't think so. I think it's more just a way of expressing frustration more than an actual attempt at suicide. It's like punching a pillow or breaking a dish..... in this instance... the object of destruction is the self. In all of these instances there is one common theme.... something is being destroyed. It's a projection of wanting your pain to die. Some people put their problems on the outside world and deal with them there. Some people really feel like it is them.... in which they become hard on themselves. As for me.... thats all it was.... just a way of expressing emotion.... nothing more.

I understand what you mean. It's the same frustration that makes me think of ending it all. Though I doubt I'd ever do it. I'm glad we feel the same way about this